About My Sweet Anna( Or as she is know at home Eeyore)

Two quotes from Eeyore "

"It's snowing still," said Eeyore gloomily.
"So it is." said Pooh
"And freezing."
"Is it?" said Pooh
"Yes," said Eeyore. "However," he said, brightening up a
little, "we haven't had an earthquake lately."
From "The House at Pooh Corner"

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The House at Pooh Corner The old grey donkey, Eeyore stood by himself in a thistly corner of the Forest, his front feet well apart, his head on one side, and thought about things. Sometimes he thought sadly to himself, "Why?" and sometimes he thought, "Wherefore?" and sometimes he thought, "Inasmuch as which?" and sometimes he didn't quite know what he was thinking about.
From "Winnie the Pooh"
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2 am and all is well. LOL. I wish this was true. Head pounding and nauseated waiting for medication to kick in so I can go back to sleep. I thank everyone for their prayers and concern. I can pretty much handle the ups and downs in my life, because I have accepted God's plan for me. And this may be because I'm older( yeah 50 makes you older) and have more experience from God to help guide my way. But as you know when it's one of your babies going through a trial, it seems to hurt so much more. Anna is really down, I know all of this is for the Glory of God. But my mama's heart would much rather it be me have a trial right now and not my baby. But how do I expect them to grow in their faith and walk with God if they don't go through these trial in life. And my goodness this is nothing compared to God sending Jesus to us to be the sacrifice for our sins. I just makes me love him more. So help me pray that we go through this little trial in a way that God will be Glorified and someones life will be touched by how we handle our selves. Anna has been struggling with horrible headaches since back in October-November. When she went to the OB/GYN for regular check up they found that her prolactin levels were really high This in its self can cause many problems. Prolactin is made in the pituitary gland, one of many hormones that it makes. The pituitay gland is about the size of a pea and if you put your finger between your eye brows it is right about there. Really close to the optic nerve. They did a MIR that was pituitary specific and no large tumor was found, but that dose not rule out a micro adenoma of the pituitary gland(meaning tiny, tiny, tiny begin tumor). She has started on medication that has had to be changed 4 times trying to get control of the headaches. Nothing has worked for her headaches so they are sending her to a Neurologist. I made her go to the chiropractor thinking this would help the headache. No luck. Then all of the sudden she could not wear her contacts. Her vision was very blurry and she had to go to wearing her glasses all the time. So we went to get her eyes checked Tuesday, after going to have going to have blood drawn to see what the medication has done to correct the prolactin levels. We just thought it would be normal eye check, get new contacts and new glasses,and headaches would be gone. But the eye doctor found increased pressure on her optic nerves. which if you remember is right there at the Pituitay Gland. They took photos of the optic nerves, which were pretty cool. And the doctor sat with us to explain what she thinks is going on. Anna has an increased amount of cerebrospinal fluid, that is putting pressure on her optic nerve, hence the uncontrollable headaches. She goes this morning for visual field test to see if it is affecting her peripheral vision. All of this is really a blessing because it gives us more info to take to the neurologist. She will probably have to have a spinal tap to see what the pressure is and have some drained off. But because this is something the body makes all the time this may not fix the problem. The eye doctor said that there is medication she might could take, but I don't know of any and have not felt like reasurching it. Or she could have to have a shunt put in to take care of extra fluid. To place a shunt they go into the brain and put a tube in that drains the extra spinal fluid in to her abdominal cavity where her body get rid of it all by it's self. This is not a bad thing except that shunts can move or fail and sometimes it has to be done over and over. All of this on top of all she has went through with her knees( rehab and knee braces all the time and orthotics in her shoes) and tonsils(oh, yeah she may be having to have tonsils out). Has really gotten her down. As everyone know Depression is a major problem in my family so I worry about this also. So I have written this so that everyone will know what is going on and what to be praying about. !. that we show Christ in every step of this treatment process. 2. that our faith grows stronger in God through this trial. 3. that the problem can be fixed where the headaches go away, because her pain is getting worse and worse. 4. that we are accepting of God's plan. 5. that she doesn't fall in to a deep depression over all to these things. 6. and that she dosen't end up in an "earthquake" (quote from Eeyore) . We already call her our Eeyore, because she loves Eeyore so much. I just don't want her to turn in to him.

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Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.
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2 Corinthians 12:9 But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.
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Ephesians 3:16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being,

I am Thankful

Well, its already been on of those days, didn't sleep well. Mama called before 7:30 and woke me after I finally got to sleep after 6:30. Our cows at her house were out. A tree had fallen on the fence. I Had to get girls and Christy up. The Cows were easy to get put up, but there was a big hole in fence. Rodney said take metal panels cover hole and park tractor in front of it. It's like a 1000 degrees out. Bitz got stung by wasp, I got stung by wasp. The girls were nearly late for work so I braided 3 heads of hair. I a load of clothes washing and that needed to be hung out. Dropped an broke a plate, had to sweep the whole kitchen floor, now my back is killing me. And my heating pads not working right. Went ahead and cooked chicken tortellini for supper, its in the oven ready to eat. I scrubbed out sinks and commodes while I was already hot and sweating like a pig.(do pigs sweat?) Bitz and I took Bendryl because my leg was swelling from wasp sting. And Alevee for my back. Then Chelsea called to tell me she threw up in Piggly Wiggly parking lot, no fever. Feels OK waiting to see if she throws up again. I think she got too hot patching fence(at least that's what I hope). :P But I thank God my day is not as bad as the one Nolan had yesterday. And it just proves GOD is Good all the time, we need to count our Blessings. Because even in all that chaos this morning he was still God. And how many blessings did I come home to this morning. A nice soft bed and not a pallet on the floor made out of straw crawling with bugs. I did not have to carry my clothes to the creek and beat them on a rock to get them clean. I did not have to start a fire in my stove to cook my supper. I did not have to catch, kill, and pluck a chicken to have one to cook. I didn't have to make dough to make my pasta, and my Alfredo sauce came in a jar. I Thank God for brooms, I did not have to go out and cut sage brush to make one, I just picked mine up at walmart. And I am thankful for plastic plates because that's what we will eat supper on tonight. Thank God for comet that cleans with out making me wheeze so bad. And air conditioning that God blessed someone to invent. I have girls that have no problem, being drug out of bed, driving a tractor and running cows and patching holes in fences til their daddy can get home to fix it right. Oh and thank God for celling fans, reclining chairs, and sweet dogs that sit in your lap. Medication to help nausea and bee stings and back pain. Oh and running water in my house so when I cool off I don't have to go down to the spring to wash off, I can get in my shower and run water as long as I want. And for power, we all don't like to do with out power. I thank God I still have both of my parents, my sister and her precious family and brother and his precious family. I am thankful for my wonderful husband who is a little over protective, but show me he loves me every day. And all my children who all know Jesus Christ as their saviour and are good moral people. I am thankful that God sent Joshua and Justin good christian women for their wives. I am thankful for our little Logan who is healthy, beautiful, and has such a sweet disposition, he is just content. And I believe that has a lot to do with what a good job his mom and dad are doing. My bones are tired today, I may not get up out of this chair again today. But the God who is on the mountain is the God who is in the valley. But the main thing I should be thankful for is that God sent his only begotten Son to earth to die for my sins. That I'm a sinner saved by Grace. There is no way to name all my blessing from God, and I need to remember each day to say thank you and to Rejoice that I am a sinner saved by Grace and for all these other things that really doesn't mean so much in the big picture of life. Thank you God for your many Blessings on me.



4 Rejoice in the Lord alway: and again I say, Rejoice.
5 Let your moderation be known unto all men. The Lord is at hand.
6 Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.
7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
8 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.
9 Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you.
10 But I rejoiced in the Lord greatly, that now at the last your care of me hath flourished again; wherein ye were also careful, but ye lacked opportunity.
11 Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.
12 I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.
13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

My Horrible Week :) there is a time for everything : even Green Monsters

This was the best part of my week. :)

Well I guess I'm to the point I can laugh, so I thought I'd share with yall, the reasons last week was so horrible that I threw my self that big ole pitty party. As everyone knows I get the lovely IVIG ( immunogoliblin G, someone elses antiboties) every 4 weeks. And one of the best friends I've ever had, Kerry Quinn, comes and spends 3 six hour days with me in a row. We have a blast between the headache and nasuea. We watch movies, catch up on each others lives and solove all the worlds problems. This was the first treatment I was having since I became a Grammy to our sweet Logan, and we had a lot to catch up. And I knew I would not get to see him for several days, so Rodney took me over there Monday and I got to spend the afternoon with our little man while his mom, dad, and Grump all got a nap. Could not have planned it better if I had tried. So Monday was great. Then bright and early on Tuesday Kerry comes, and I get a truck load of pre-medications so that I can live through the headache and nasuea. Well we didn't have my Toradol. My fault. I had ordered it but had not remebered to have Rodney pick it up. Kerry was very concerned about strating the IVIG with out it being here. So I had to call the pharmacy to make sure it was ordered and then call Super MAMA and her and daddy went to Gadsden to get it. Of course we went ahead and started the IVIG with everything else in our arsnel of pre medication. This includes 80mg of steriods on the first day. I know most everyone has had a steriod shot or takes a dose pack and kinda know what it dose to you. HYPER to the point of MANIC is the only words I can think of to describe how it affects me. And I don't sleep the frist night at all. I had a superduper headache and nasuea was so bad I threw up for the first time in months and months. We lost power, in the last little bit of a movie Kerry and I were watching, and when it was time for her to go home, it was total slience in my house. I think i've told y'all before I don't care very much for silence. I raised 4 loud children, kept Laura's 2 and a couple more and I thrive on loud chaos. That is one place me and Laura are different she loves the slience and solitude, and I just hate it. So Kerry came her 3 days. We had a great time other than the headache and nasuea. Rodney went to see Logan Wednesday afternoon to take him his tree. That's another story. But I thought that was a foul, he should not have gotten to see little man with out me. I know I'm being petty and jelous and God really frowns on those traits. But lets be honest, I was petty and jelous. Then Chelsea and Anna went to see Logan on Thursday evening after they got off work. I know they had not seen him since the weekend but it didnot help the green monster that lives inside of me. Then came Friday, the last day Laura would be home for over 2 weeks and she had wanted Mama, Me and Her to all do something together that day, before she flew off into the wild blue yonder on Saturday. Yeah, you guessed right I had a 101 fever witch is normal, the headache with is normal and horrible nasuea witch has gotten to not be normal. So I didnot get to go with Mama and Laura. They ran into Justin, Leslie and Logan in walmart. Green Monster rears its ugly head again. So here we had the perfect storm for me to be feeling very sorry for my self. It dosn't take much to get me there these days anyway. It had stormed the ground was good and wet, I was by my self, with a 101 temp. feeling pretty yuck. And Bitz needed to go potty. As you all know she is very very very spoiled...lol...to put it mildly and will not go off the porch unless I do. So my plan was to go down a couple steps, fake her out and sit on the steps and let her be out side and do her business. The best laid plans of mice and men...lol... I stepped wrong on the bottom step, yall all know I fall down all the time. Well you got it right I fell,my right foot went up under me and made a loud pop, remember I like loud so God gave me a little taste of a different loud. I fell backwards on the to steps and hit hard with my left buttocks. The sun was out bright and hot. And I couldn't get up. Oh i'll call someone to help me get up. Oh yeah I left my cell phone on the table. But who would I call if I had it. Mama and Laura were gone, they were looking at my baby in Walmart. Rodney and the girls were at work. I know Javin would have come and helped me BUT I didn't have a phone. And I think if I had of screamed all day he would have been too far away to have heard me. So I was stuck. Head pounding, nasuea like you wouldnot beileve, pain in my foot so intense it brought tears, and my butt hurt. So I sat and sat and sat for about 45 minutes, until my strenght came back enough to pull my self up the steps, of course Bitz was trying to help :) Myasthenia Gravis is an evil thing, becasue it weekens the muscles and the more you try to use them the weeker they become. So I would say it was about an hour and a half ordeal and only one car came by the whole time. I waved big but I guess they just thought I was being freindly, cause they didn't even slow down. Threw up when I finally got in the house. Cried the rest of the afternoon, so I was a pleasure to be around when Rodney and the girls got home that evening. I didn't tell them I fell, but you can't fool Rodney Freeman he wanted to know why I was limping and I said I fell taking Bitz out. Then he lectured me about the steps for the millionth time. Oh yeah and it was a holiday weekend and those are always hard for me. Because I try to be the good mother and don't make plans so my married children are not pulled in 2 different directions. I figure if they want to see me they will come. And I do get them for their birthdays. Sunday I didn't get to go to Church, but that is usaual, but I think the Green Monster should have went, it needed a good preaching to. The girls had to work and the minute they got home they left to go to Church with Justin,  Leslie and Logan because they were having fireworks at their church and refreshments after, which I'm sure was a lot more fun than sitting with the Green Monster. I was still not feel great Monday but Rodney and the girls were home and cooked ribs and made homemade strawberry ice cream. That was nice. Joshua and Amy stopped by on their way home. And Justin got to spend the weekend home with his new family. So it all worked out the way it was suspose to. My foot is still swollen, but i've used my x-ray vision and nothing is broken except my pride. I look like some took a sharpe and drew a big black line straight across my left buttocks. So to sum my week up, it was horrible, but it was the week I was suspose to have. And I don't understand the ways of God but I do know he know the whole story, from begining to ending and when I get to heaven if I take time from praising God he may share the why with me, but by then I don't think i'll even care, it will just be a little blip in the time I spent on earth. Maybe it was to let me see that I can still cry, because it has been a long time since I have made tears. And tears are good to wash the soul. I do believe Ecclesiastes 3. There is a time for everything. And I'm sure my time to laugh is coming. Writing this has helped me take stock of my life and maybe put the Green Monster in its place for a while. I'm sure I will see it again because i'm just human. I think that is the point I want to make with this. We are all just human, we are just sinners saved by the Blood of Jesus Christ. And there is a time in our lives for every emotion, and sometimes its good to cry. And we know only God can beat that Green Monster i've read the book and we do win in the end.

Ecclesiastes 3



1To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:

2A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;

3A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;

4A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

5A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;

6A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;

7A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

8A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.

9What profit hath he that worketh in that wherein he laboureth?

10I have seen the travail, which God hath given to the sons of men to be exercised in it.

11He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end.

12I know that there is no good in them, but for a man to rejoice, and to do good in his life.

13And also that every man should eat and drink, and enjoy the good of all his labour, it is the gift of God.

14I know that, whatsoever God doeth, it shall be for ever: nothing can be put to it, nor any thing taken from it: and God doeth it, that men should fear before him.

15That which hath been is now; and that which is to be hath already been; and God requireth that which is past.

16And moreover I saw under the sun the place of judgment, that wickedness was there; and the place of righteousness, that iniquity was there.

17I said in mine heart, God shall judge the righteous and the wicked: for there is a time there for every purpose and for every work.

18I said in mine heart concerning the estate of the sons of men, that God might manifest them, and that they might see that they themselves are beasts.

19For that which befalleth the sons of men befalleth beasts; even one thing befalleth them: as the one dieth, so dieth the other; yea, they have all one breath; so that a man hath no preeminence above a beast: for all is vanity.

20All go unto one place; all are of the dust, and all turn to dust again.

21Who knoweth the spirit of man that goeth upward, and the spirit of the beast that goeth downward to the earth?

22Wherefore I perceive that there is nothing better, than that a man should rejoice in his own works; for that is his portion: for who shall bring him to see what shall be after him?