Well well well, a mighty deep subject.

Well, well, well, a mighty deep subject I've been told. It seems deep subjects is what I have had time to ponder on lately. This is a look into the mind of a crazy shut in, who hasn't been out of her house this whole month except for doctor appointments and Church the 1st Sunday of the month.(Depression could rear it's ugly head anytime)  So here we go, It will be a flight of idea's, that is a mental health term.( it means crazy thoughts that jump form one thing to the other with no apparent connection).Why did God decide to make the Sun brighter than the Moon. Why is the sky so beautifully blue and the s grass green. Why did he decided to gift us with such beauty in November when the change of the color of the leaves become so gorgeous. And the spring colors are just as beautiful as the fall, it's just amazing. These are great question that we think might ask God about when we get to Heaven, but I think we will be to busy Praising God to even think about it.  Why do each of my children have such different personalities, even though I raised all 4. That's is a nature over nurture question. I think the personality is born with them, but we as parents maybe mold their moral ways. I'm proud of how all 4 of my children conduct them selves in the world. They strive to let God shine in their lives. Did I help with that, I'll have to ask Jesus when I get to heaven. It's something I ponder a lot. Was I and am I a good mother. I'ts a question you will never really know the answer to while on earth.  Why does a company contracts have to come up every 4 to 5 years at holiday time and make you stress over your insurance. Is it maybe to make you either hate all the management or maybe its to make us get down on our knees and have a conversation with God. And to trust that his will is perfect in our lives, and that he will take care of it. A little over $200.00 a week for just my insurance is killing us. Rodney has had to start working 5 days a week after being on 4 for years. And he aint getting any younger. I praise God that he is able to work after his accident. But that 5th day isn't being kind to him. I know God's got this, but I still ponder the why of this because he seem more tired as the days go by.  Why do people hurt other people. Why do people lie, is it just to make them selves look good. Is it just to show us the evil in the world. Why do we use pumpkins at Halloween and carve faces and other cute things in them. It is so fun to watch a child's wonder when you light up a D-duck(that's Donald to every one else) for the first time, in a pumpkin( how weird can we be). but I love it, and so does Joshua, Chelsea, Anna & Shawn. Carving pumpkins is a art to them.Why do we live in houses made of wood and brick and not Tee-pees or mud huts or straw huts, stick huts, hummmmm, interesting thought. I don't think God really cares where we live, as long as he lives in us. Why are horses and donkeys so different. Donkeys can be so loud and stubborn. Is that why so many people use them to describe other people.( YOU A**) Just a thought. Why does the grass in the spring and fall make Bitz feet itch. Why do I have to have a stomach bug when I've looked so forward to leaving my house to go to Church for weeks and weeks and weeks and weeks. Why did this stupid virus cost me a milkshake that I was going to make Grump buy me when he took calves off Sunday afternoon. Why have I missed the whole month of October.(Where did it go) Why is the last day I remember Rodney and I going out to eat being the day on his mama's 2nd cataract surgery when she didn't do as well as she did with the first one. And I stayed with her till Rodney got off work. When he picked me up, we went to CVS to pick up a Billion dollars worth of medicine and we ate at Sonics next door at the picnic table. And before that was the day we had 4 doctors appointments, and before that was June 14th the anniversary of our first date. And on the anniversary eat out the little waitress paid for our meal, because we told her it was the 37th anniversary of our first date, that's so sweet she said. See there are still good people in the world, makes your heart warm.  And why do little people love to squeal. Why do I love to hear them hear them squeal. Why does having a baby sit on you lap make your blood pressure go down. Why is IG so expensive. I'm glad it makes me feel so good. Why can't I get my strength back. The strength just want come and I just want to feel better. But I know this is God's plan for my life. The lack of strength has caused me not to be able to complete the Christmas task I had set for my self. The Children will get half finished Christmas gifts. Maybe the other half for next Christmas. Why when I wanted to pretend I was feeling a little better and was cleaning the bathroom, I turned the big tub on to run CLR thru the jets, and let the water run for over in the tub for about an hour. Yes, there was a lot of water in my carpet. Thanks to Nolan, Shawn and Rodney maybe the floor want rot out. I like living on plywood, we may even get some tile laid around it like we planned.(just as long as it doesn't rot I'm good) Oh me, at the weird things that run thru my mind. I feel trapped sometimes. Sometimes I don't think I ever want to leave the house again. Depression. People it is a horrible disease I feel it closing in on me at times. And at times I think I have defeated it. Well, Well, Well, it is a deep deep hole that you can fall into and never crawl out of by your self. Ponder that for a while. I have done pretty good this year with my depression considering all the things that I've had going on in my life and in the lives of the ones I love. God has the rope you just have to grab hold.

2 Corinthians 12:9-10King James Version (KJV)

9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.

Proverbs 18:10King James Version (KJV)

10 The name of the Lord is a strong tower: the righteous runneth into it, and is safe.

Psalm 46King James Version (KJV)

46 God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.

2 Therefore will not we fear, though the earth be removed, and though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea;

3 Though the waters thereof roar and be troubled, though the mountains shake with the swelling thereof. Selah.

4 There is a river, the streams whereof shall make glad the city of God, the holy place of the tabernacles of the most High.

5 God is in the midst of her; she shall not be moved: God shall help her, and that right early.

6 The heathen raged, the kingdoms were moved: he uttered his voice, the earth melted.

7 The Lord of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah.

8 Come, behold the works of the Lord, what desolations he hath made in the earth.

9 He maketh wars to cease unto the end of the earth; he breaketh the bow, and cutteth the spear in sunder; he burneth the chariot in the fire.

10 Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.

11 The Lord of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah.

Announcement of Aubrey

This was my post Oct 14, 2014. How little did we know that this precious gift would lift us up so much a year later when Rodney Freeman had his horrible life changing accident ( well life changing for normal people). That sweet snuggly baby made a lit of days better. So I thought it might be a good time to repost. Aubrey was wanted for a long time but she was sent in God's time. He knew then what our family would be facing. From then till death. That bright sweet very willful child has kept us on our toes. She has helped Gggaaamommy sew on everones quilt tops. Sitting on my lap amazed at the sewing machine. Helping me push fabric through. She gets up on my lap to help me crochet. Shebis Left handed, i haven't convenienced her yet she needs to sit looking at me instead of snuggled up to my chest. But s will. Pray for her mama and daddybad they try to conquer the terrible twos, without squashing that wonderful will she has. Help her learn her manners and I know that strong will that God has given her will take her far in life. But Lord please please help her learn her manners now so she don't get too much time out. love that baby. The dates just touched my heart this morning. Joshua did you realize the dates. I wrote this one year from when Daddy had surgery on his shoulder. God is so good.

Congratulations,  Joshua A. Freeman  and Amy R. Freeman on becoming parents. It is an awesome thing, with awesome responsibilities. I promise you to help with prayer anytime you need it, and even when you think your doing good I will hold you up in prayer. I promise to physically help you if she gets her nights and days mixed up or if she is a screamer and you just need a little break so you can get a nap. You will have a great responsibility in raising our little Aubrey Lynn in a good Christian Home. Remember this scripture, while you are raising your little lady.
Proverbs 22:6
6 Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.
The last verse is what makes the verse above it happen.
Ephesians 6:1-4 ESV Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right. (2) “Honor your father and mother” (this is the first commandment with a promise), (3) “that it may go well with you and that you may live long in the land.” (4) Fathers, do not provoke your children to anger, but bring them up in the discipline and instruction of the Lord.

It is OK to discipline your Child. She will be a better woman for it. You are not just caring for a baby you are raising a woman who one day will go out in the world. Start with day one to mold her into the woman you want her be.That goal should be a Godly Woman. If you do this all the other things will come easier for her.

Proverbs 23:13-14 Do not withhold discipline from a child; if you strike him with a rod, he will not die. If you strike him with the rod, you will save his soul from Sheol.

This last one reminds us that WE have to teach our children the ways of God.  Jesus Christ needs to be instilled in her heart early and often.

Deuteronomy 6:4-9 ESV “Hear, O Israel: The LORD our God, the LORD is one. (5) You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might. (6) And these words that I command you today shall be on your heart. (7) You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, and when you walk by the way, and when you lie down, and when you rise. (8) You shall bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontlets between your eyes. (9) You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates. -
I am proud of the Man & Woman y'all have become, since you said your I DO's in front of God. You made a promise to each other but you also made a promise to God about your marriage. I'm just sooooooo sooooooo proud of you both.
I look forward to seeing Aubrey growing up. If you Love Jesus and I know you do, it will make raising her in the right way so much easier.  I know you will Love Aubrey with all your heart, because you have learned what real love is from Jesus.  Then these scriptures will be easy. Love y'all so much. The best GIFT I can give you for raising Aubrey, is when in doubt go to the Bible for your answers.

I wonder Why?

I Wonder Why?
We have such devastation from Hurricanes.
Oh, I don't need to Know God is in Control.
I Wonder Why?
A crazy man would shoot up a country music concert and kill 49 people and injure over 500.
Oh, I don't need to Know God is in Control
I Wonder Why?
My sweet sister in law is having to be away from her family for work, when my earthly eye thinks they all need to be together.
Oh, I don't need to Know God is in Control
I Wonder Why?
The elderly in my Church, are having to live in such pain. When I pray for their comfort everyday.
Oh, I don't need to Know God is in Control
I Wonder Why?
There are people in the world who are hungry and have no food, when we throw leftovers out all the time. We should be managing our resource better. But Who do I tell, who takes control, it is overwhelming.
Oh, I don't need to Know God is in God Control
I Wonder Why?
My sister has to live so far from her grand babies. It seems so unfair(I know life's not fair) but I know the love and kisses and sweetness she is missing out on and I feel greedy and selfish because I get to have this and she doesn't. She never complains and always has a picture for me to see of those babies. She is content with a computer screen and flying many miles for a kiss.
Oh, I don't need to Know God is in Control
I Wonder Why?
My sister is so strong and I'm so weak. I'm talking about my character and faith and just about everything. I admire her so much, for the Grace and Strength in the Lord she shows me all the time.
Oh, I don't need to Know God is in Control
I Wonder Why?O
My sweet daddy has to have Parkinson, And his mind is slowing down. Why he has to be so unsteady on his feet and fall so frequently. But I do thank God he hasn't broken anything yet.
Oh, I don't need to Know God is in Control
I Wonder Why?
My mama is having so much trouble with her legs.She has always been so young.  It just hurts me for her that she's not able to do the things she used to do, with out having to take several days to rest after. . It's hard to watch to when your parents are aging.
Oh, I don't need to Know God is in Control
I Wonder Why?
When my child does everything right that she can't find her niche in life. I want her to follow her heart. But It seems to break her heart every time. Back to the grocery store. I wonder what God has in store for her. I pray he shows her her way. And that she and we are willing for his Will to be done
Oh, I don't need to Know God is in Control
I Wonder Why?
My other 3 children seem to be doing well all the the time. I pray for each of their family's and marriages. That they always turn to God in times of crises. But I have not control over that, which is as it's supposed to be.
I Wonder Why?
My sweet Judy has to fight that ugly Cancer. And she does it with such strength and Grace. A smile on her face. She always lifts me up, causes me to laugh and forget our problems for just a moment in time. I wish I had that quality.
Oh, I don't need to Know God is in Control.
I Wonder Why?
I'ms sick all the time, This last year has just about got me.
Oh, I don't need to Know God is in Control
I Wonder Why?
The sky is Blue and the Grass is Green
Oh, I don't need to Know God is in Control
I Wonder Why?
God saw fit to give me Rodney ( Grump ) Freeman as my helpmate. The love of my life. The most wonderful husband in the whole world. What did I do to deserve this Blessing.
Oh, I don't need to Know God is in Control.
I Wonder Why?
We concentrate on all the bad in the world and don't Praise God for the good. He takes care of our every need. I could go on for ever. and ever with this.
Oh, I don't need to Know God is in Control
I Wonder What?
You wonder Why about. The troubles and trials in your life. The Blessings in your life, Only you can answer this question.But just Remember This one thing when you ask this question.
Oh, I don't need to Know God is in Control