Thursday, July 28, 2011

About My Sweet Anna( Or as she is know at home Eeyore)



Two quotes from Eeyore "

"It's snowing still," said Eeyore gloomily.
"So it is." said Pooh
"And freezing."
"Is it?" said Pooh
"Yes," said Eeyore. "However," he said, brightening up a
little, "we haven't had an earthquake lately."
From "The House at Pooh Corner"

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The House at Pooh Corner The old grey donkey, Eeyore stood by himself in a thistly corner of the Forest, his front feet well apart, his head on one side, and thought about things. Sometimes he thought sadly to himself, "Why?" and sometimes he thought, "Wherefore?" and sometimes he thought, "Inasmuch as which?" and sometimes he didn't quite know what he was thinking about.
From "Winnie the Pooh"
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2 am and all is well. LOL. I wish this was true. Head pounding and nauseated waiting for medication to kick in so I can go back to sleep. I thank everyone for their prayers and concern. I can pretty much handle the ups and downs in my life, because I have accepted God's plan for me. And this may be because I'm older( yeah 50 makes you older) and have more experience from God to help guide my way. But as you know when it's one of your babies going through a trial, it seems to hurt so much more. Anna is really down, I know all of this is for the Glory of God. But my mama's heart would much rather it be me have a trial right now and not my baby. But how do I expect them to grow in their faith and walk with God if they don't go through these trial in life. And my goodness this is nothing compared to God sending Jesus to us to be the sacrifice for our sins. I just makes me love him more. So help me pray that we go through this little trial in a way that God will be Glorified and someones life will be touched by how we handle our selves. Anna has been struggling with horrible headaches since back in October-November. When she went to the OB/GYN for regular check up they found that her prolactin levels were really high This in its self can cause many problems. Prolactin is made in the pituitary gland, one of many hormones that it makes. The pituitay gland is about the size of a pea and if you put your finger between your eye brows it is right about there. Really close to the optic nerve. They did a MIR that was pituitary specific and no large tumor was found, but that dose not rule out a micro adenoma of the pituitary gland(meaning tiny, tiny, tiny begin tumor). She has started on medication that has had to be changed 4 times trying to get control of the headaches. Nothing has worked for her headaches so they are sending her to a Neurologist. I made her go to the chiropractor thinking this would help the headache. No luck. Then all of the sudden she could not wear her contacts. Her vision was very blurry and she had to go to wearing her glasses all the time. So we went to get her eyes checked Tuesday, after going to have going to have blood drawn to see what the medication has done to correct the prolactin levels. We just thought it would be normal eye check, get new contacts and new glasses,and headaches would be gone. But the eye doctor found increased pressure on her optic nerves. which if you remember is right there at the Pituitay Gland. They took photos of the optic nerves, which were pretty cool. And the doctor sat with us to explain what she thinks is going on. Anna has an increased amount of cerebrospinal fluid, that is putting pressure on her optic nerve, hence the uncontrollable headaches. She goes this morning for visual field test to see if it is affecting her peripheral vision. All of this is really a blessing because it gives us more info to take to the neurologist. She will probably have to have a spinal tap to see what the pressure is and have some drained off. But because this is something the body makes all the time this may not fix the problem. The eye doctor said that there is medication she might could take, but I don't know of any and have not felt like reasurching it. Or she could have to have a shunt put in to take care of extra fluid. To place a shunt they go into the brain and put a tube in that drains the extra spinal fluid in to her abdominal cavity where her body get rid of it all by it's self. This is not a bad thing except that shunts can move or fail and sometimes it has to be done over and over. All of this on top of all she has went through with her knees( rehab and knee braces all the time and orthotics in her shoes) and tonsils(oh, yeah she may be having to have tonsils out). Has really gotten her down. As everyone know Depression is a major problem in my family so I worry about this also. So I have written this so that everyone will know what is going on and what to be praying about. !. that we show Christ in every step of this treatment process. 2. that our faith grows stronger in God through this trial. 3. that the problem can be fixed where the headaches go away, because her pain is getting worse and worse. 4. that we are accepting of God's plan. 5. that she doesn't fall in to a deep depression over all to these things. 6. and that she dosen't end up in an "earthquake" (quote from Eeyore) . We already call her our Eeyore, because she loves Eeyore so much. I just don't want her to turn in to him.

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Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.
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2 Corinthians 12:9 But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.
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Ephesians 3:16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being,




Wednesday, July 20, 2011

I am Thankful

Well, its already been on of those days, didn't sleep well. Mama called before 7:30 and woke me after I finally got to sleep after 6:30. Our cows at her house were out. A tree had fallen on the fence. I Had to get girls and Christy up. The Cows were easy to get put up, but there was a big hole in fence. Rodney said take metal panels cover hole and park tractor in front of it. It's like a 1000 degrees out. Bitz got stung by wasp, I got stung by wasp. The girls were nearly late for work so I braided 3 heads of hair. I a load of clothes washing and that needed to be hung out. Dropped an broke a plate, had to sweep the whole kitchen floor, now my back is killing me. And my heating pads not working right. Went ahead and cooked chicken tortellini for supper, its in the oven ready to eat. I scrubbed out sinks and commodes while I was already hot and sweating like a pig.(do pigs sweat?) Bitz and I took Bendryl because my leg was swelling from wasp sting. And Alevee for my back. Then Chelsea called to tell me she threw up in Piggly Wiggly parking lot, no fever. Feels OK waiting to see if she throws up again. I think she got too hot patching fence(at least that's what I hope). :P But I thank God my day is not as bad as the one Nolan had yesterday. And it just proves GOD is Good all the time, we need to count our Blessings. Because even in all that chaos this morning he was still God. And how many blessings did I come home to this morning. A nice soft bed and not a pallet on the floor made out of straw crawling with bugs. I did not have to carry my clothes to the creek and beat them on a rock to get them clean. I did not have to start a fire in my stove to cook my supper. I did not have to catch, kill, and pluck a chicken to have one to cook. I didn't have to make dough to make my pasta, and my Alfredo sauce came in a jar. I Thank God for brooms, I did not have to go out and cut sage brush to make one, I just picked mine up at walmart. And I am thankful for plastic plates because that's what we will eat supper on tonight. Thank God for comet that cleans with out making me wheeze so bad. And air conditioning that God blessed someone to invent. I have girls that have no problem, being drug out of bed, driving a tractor and running cows and patching holes in fences til their daddy can get home to fix it right. Oh and thank God for celling fans, reclining chairs, and sweet dogs that sit in your lap. Medication to help nausea and bee stings and back pain. Oh and running water in my house so when I cool off I don't have to go down to the spring to wash off, I can get in my shower and run water as long as I want. And for power, we all don't like to do with out power. I thank God I still have both of my parents, my sister and her precious family and brother and his precious family. I am thankful for my wonderful husband who is a little over protective, but show me he loves me every day. And all my children who all know Jesus Christ as their saviour and are good moral people. I am thankful that God sent Joshua and Justin good christian women for their wives. I am thankful for our little Logan who is healthy, beautiful, and has such a sweet disposition, he is just content. And I believe that has a lot to do with what a good job his mom and dad are doing. My bones are tired today, I may not get up out of this chair again today. But the God who is on the mountain is the God who is in the valley. But the main thing I should be thankful for is that God sent his only begotten Son to earth to die for my sins. That I'm a sinner saved by Grace. There is no way to name all my blessing from God, and I need to remember each day to say thank you and to Rejoice that I am a sinner saved by Grace and for all these other things that really doesn't mean so much in the big picture of life. Thank you God for your many Blessings on me.



4 Rejoice in the Lord alway: and again I say, Rejoice.
5 Let your moderation be known unto all men. The Lord is at hand.
6 Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.
7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
8 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.
9 Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you.
10 But I rejoiced in the Lord greatly, that now at the last your care of me hath flourished again; wherein ye were also careful, but ye lacked opportunity.
11 Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.
12 I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.
13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

My Horrible Week :) there is a time for everything : even Green Monsters

This was the best part of my week. :)



Well I guess I'm to the point I can laugh, so I thought I'd share with yall, the reasons last week was so horrible that I threw my self that big ole pitty party. As everyone knows I get the lovely IVIG ( immunogoliblin G, someone elses antiboties) every 4 weeks. And one of the best friends I've ever had, Kerry Quinn, comes and spends 3 six hour days with me in a row. We have a blast between the headache and nasuea. We watch movies, catch up on each others lives and solove all the worlds problems. This was the first treatment I was having since I became a Grammy to our sweet Logan, and we had a lot to catch up. And I knew I would not get to see him for several days, so Rodney took me over there Monday and I got to spend the afternoon with our little man while his mom, dad, and Grump all got a nap. Could not have planned it better if I had tried. So Monday was great. Then bright and early on Tuesday Kerry comes, and I get a truck load of pre-medications so that I can live through the headache and nasuea. Well we didn't have my Toradol. My fault. I had ordered it but had not remebered to have Rodney pick it up. Kerry was very concerned about strating the IVIG with out it being here. So I had to call the pharmacy to make sure it was ordered and then call Super MAMA and her and daddy went to Gadsden to get it. Of course we went ahead and started the IVIG with everything else in our arsnel of pre medication. This includes 80mg of steriods on the first day. I know most everyone has had a steriod shot or takes a dose pack and kinda know what it dose to you. HYPER to the point of MANIC is the only words I can think of to describe how it affects me. And I don't sleep the frist night at all. I had a superduper headache and nasuea was so bad I threw up for the first time in months and months. We lost power, in the last little bit of a movie Kerry and I were watching, and when it was time for her to go home, it was total slience in my house. I think i've told y'all before I don't care very much for silence. I raised 4 loud children, kept Laura's 2 and a couple more and I thrive on loud chaos. That is one place me and Laura are different she loves the slience and solitude, and I just hate it. So Kerry came her 3 days. We had a great time other than the headache and nasuea. Rodney went to see Logan Wednesday afternoon to take him his tree. That's another story. But I thought that was a foul, he should not have gotten to see little man with out me. I know I'm being petty and jelous and God really frowns on those traits. But lets be honest, I was petty and jelous. Then Chelsea and Anna went to see Logan on Thursday evening after they got off work. I know they had not seen him since the weekend but it didnot help the green monster that lives inside of me. Then came Friday, the last day Laura would be home for over 2 weeks and she had wanted Mama, Me and Her to all do something together that day, before she flew off into the wild blue yonder on Saturday. Yeah, you guessed right I had a 101 fever witch is normal, the headache with is normal and horrible nasuea witch has gotten to not be normal. So I didnot get to go with Mama and Laura. They ran into Justin, Leslie and Logan in walmart. Green Monster rears its ugly head again. So here we had the perfect storm for me to be feeling very sorry for my self. It dosn't take much to get me there these days anyway. It had stormed the ground was good and wet, I was by my self, with a 101 temp. feeling pretty yuck. And Bitz needed to go potty. As you all know she is very very very spoiled...lol...to put it mildly and will not go off the porch unless I do. So my plan was to go down a couple steps, fake her out and sit on the steps and let her be out side and do her business. The best laid plans of mice and men...lol... I stepped wrong on the bottom step, yall all know I fall down all the time. Well you got it right I fell,my right foot went up under me and made a loud pop, remember I like loud so God gave me a little taste of a different loud. I fell backwards on the to steps and hit hard with my left buttocks. The sun was out bright and hot. And I couldn't get up. Oh i'll call someone to help me get up. Oh yeah I left my cell phone on the table. But who would I call if I had it. Mama and Laura were gone, they were looking at my baby in Walmart. Rodney and the girls were at work. I know Javin would have come and helped me BUT I didn't have a phone. And I think if I had of screamed all day he would have been too far away to have heard me. So I was stuck. Head pounding, nasuea like you wouldnot beileve, pain in my foot so intense it brought tears, and my butt hurt. So I sat and sat and sat for about 45 minutes, until my strenght came back enough to pull my self up the steps, of course Bitz was trying to help :) Myasthenia Gravis is an evil thing, becasue it weekens the muscles and the more you try to use them the weeker they become. So I would say it was about an hour and a half ordeal and only one car came by the whole time. I waved big but I guess they just thought I was being freindly, cause they didn't even slow down. Threw up when I finally got in the house. Cried the rest of the afternoon, so I was a pleasure to be around when Rodney and the girls got home that evening. I didn't tell them I fell, but you can't fool Rodney Freeman he wanted to know why I was limping and I said I fell taking Bitz out. Then he lectured me about the steps for the millionth time. Oh yeah and it was a holiday weekend and those are always hard for me. Because I try to be the good mother and don't make plans so my married children are not pulled in 2 different directions. I figure if they want to see me they will come. And I do get them for their birthdays. Sunday I didn't get to go to Church, but that is usaual, but I think the Green Monster should have went, it needed a good preaching to. The girls had to work and the minute they got home they left to go to Church with Justin,  Leslie and Logan because they were having fireworks at their church and refreshments after, which I'm sure was a lot more fun than sitting with the Green Monster. I was still not feel great Monday but Rodney and the girls were home and cooked ribs and made homemade strawberry ice cream. That was nice. Joshua and Amy stopped by on their way home. And Justin got to spend the weekend home with his new family. So it all worked out the way it was suspose to. My foot is still swollen, but i've used my x-ray vision and nothing is broken except my pride. I look like some took a sharpe and drew a big black line straight across my left buttocks. So to sum my week up, it was horrible, but it was the week I was suspose to have. And I don't understand the ways of God but I do know he know the whole story, from begining to ending and when I get to heaven if I take time from praising God he may share the why with me, but by then I don't think i'll even care, it will just be a little blip in the time I spent on earth. Maybe it was to let me see that I can still cry, because it has been a long time since I have made tears. And tears are good to wash the soul. I do believe Ecclesiastes 3. There is a time for everything. And I'm sure my time to laugh is coming. Writing this has helped me take stock of my life and maybe put the Green Monster in its place for a while. I'm sure I will see it again because i'm just human. I think that is the point I want to make with this. We are all just human, we are just sinners saved by the Blood of Jesus Christ. And there is a time in our lives for every emotion, and sometimes its good to cry. And we know only God can beat that Green Monster i've read the book and we do win in the end.

Ecclesiastes 3



1To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:

2A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;

3A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;

4A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

5A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;

6A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;

7A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

8A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.

9What profit hath he that worketh in that wherein he laboureth?

10I have seen the travail, which God hath given to the sons of men to be exercised in it.

11He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end.

12I know that there is no good in them, but for a man to rejoice, and to do good in his life.

13And also that every man should eat and drink, and enjoy the good of all his labour, it is the gift of God.

14I know that, whatsoever God doeth, it shall be for ever: nothing can be put to it, nor any thing taken from it: and God doeth it, that men should fear before him.

15That which hath been is now; and that which is to be hath already been; and God requireth that which is past.

16And moreover I saw under the sun the place of judgment, that wickedness was there; and the place of righteousness, that iniquity was there.

17I said in mine heart, God shall judge the righteous and the wicked: for there is a time there for every purpose and for every work.

18I said in mine heart concerning the estate of the sons of men, that God might manifest them, and that they might see that they themselves are beasts.

19For that which befalleth the sons of men befalleth beasts; even one thing befalleth them: as the one dieth, so dieth the other; yea, they have all one breath; so that a man hath no preeminence above a beast: for all is vanity.

20All go unto one place; all are of the dust, and all turn to dust again.

21Who knoweth the spirit of man that goeth upward, and the spirit of the beast that goeth downward to the earth?

22Wherefore I perceive that there is nothing better, than that a man should rejoice in his own works; for that is his portion: for who shall bring him to see what shall be after him?

Friday, May 20, 2011

WHAT A FRIEND

and What a Friend We have in Jesus (Text: Joseph M. Scriven, 1820-1886
Music: Charles C. Converse, 1832-1918 )

1. What a friend we have in Jesus,
all our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilege to carry
everything to God in prayer!
O what peace we often forfeit,
O what needless pain we bear,
all because we do not carry
everything to God in prayer.

2. Have we trials and temptations?
Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be discouraged;
take it to the Lord in prayer.
Can we find a friend so faithful
who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness;
take it to the Lord in prayer.

3. Are we weak and heavy laden,
cumbered with a load of care?
Precious Savior, still our refuge;
take it to the Lord in prayer.
Do thy friends despise, forsake thee?
Take it to the Lord in prayer!
In his arms he'll take and shield thee;
thou wilt find a solace there.

What precious words, what simple words, what easy words. My goodness, I fall so short of this song. What a privilege it is to be able to talk to our Lord Jesus Christ. He is just waiting on us to come to him with our heavy hearts, and the peace that can only come through his love and our total faith in him.

I believe, that most of us believe these words. But do our action show others where our faith and hope lies, with our Saviour Jesus. I know I fall short daily to take may cares to God. I guess I think that the trouble and trials that bother me are just so little and insignificant to bother
God with. Then it bears on me and bears on me and when I finally go to him in prayer, and he takes care of whatever my issue might be, he will ask me why have you been hanging on tho this when you could have been living in peace. So I guess what I really want to say with this is God cares about everything, and I mean everything. He cares when I stump my toe, when I'm upset because my little dog is sick. when my life seems so turned up side down. when I'm worried about Leslie being tired from working every day. Justin on top of those power poles. Anna and all her health issues and Chelsea and her weird rash. And the fact that they both want a mate to live their lives with and many babies. Joshua having job security, Amy at the bank behind that teller window. Rodney out in that big truck day after day with all thoses crazy people. I know God knows all of this. I know he will answer all of our prayers, so why do I forget to ask for peace and comfort for them. This is my failure it is not God's. I'm going to start trying .with my human heart to remember the words to this song and try to stop forfeiting the peace and hope that can only come from God. hope this makes sense to everyone. What kind of Friend are you to Jesus. I'm not a very good one so please help me to become the best friend he ever had, because I know he is the BEST Friend I'm ever going to have.

Oh, and I do want everyone to understand that I understand Peace. Peace is when our hearts are right with God and a comforts our soul no matter what troubles and trial come my way. There are never times when we are not struggling with human things. But we can carry that peace and joy In our hearts and make it through the bad times with a smile on our face, because we know you controls everything.

Friday, April 29, 2011

Feed my Sheep ( both spiritually and physically)





John 15 So when they had dined, Jesus saith to Simon Peter, Simon, son of Jonas, lovest thou me more than these? He saith unto him, Yea, Lord; thou knowest that I love thee. He saith unto him, Feed my lambs.
16 He saith to him again the second time, Simon, son of Jonas, lovest thou me? He saith unto him, Yea, Lord; thou knowest that I love thee. He saith unto him, Feed my sheep.
17 He saith unto him the third time, Simon, son of Jonas, lovest thou me? Peter was grieved because he said unto him the third time, Lovest thou me? And he said unto him, Lord, thou knowest all things; thou knowest that I love thee. Jesus saith unto him, Feed my sheep

Matthew 31 When the Son of man shall come in his glory, and all the holy angels with him, then shall he sit upon the throne of his glory:
32 And before him shall be gathered all nations: and he shall separate them one from another, as a shepherd divideth his sheep from the goats:
33 And he shall set the sheep on his right hand, but the goats on the left.
34 Then shall the King say unto them on his right hand, Come, ye blessed of my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world:
35 For I was an hungred, and ye gave me meat: I was thirsty, and ye gave me drink: I was a stranger, and ye took me in:
36 Naked, and ye clothed me: I was sick, and ye visited me: I was in prison, and ye came unto me.
37 Then shall the righteous answer him, saying, Lord, when saw we thee an hungred, and fed thee? or thirsty, and gave thee drink?
38 When saw we thee a stranger, and took thee in? or naked, and clothed thee?
39 Or when saw we thee sick, or in prison, and came unto thee?
40 And the King shall answer and say unto them, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me.
41 Then shall he say also unto them on the left hand, Depart from me, ye cursed, into everlasting fire, prepared for the devil and his angels:
42 For I was an hungred, and ye gave me no meat: I was thirsty, and ye gave me no drink:
43 I was a stranger, and ye took me not in: naked, and ye clothed me not: sick, and in prison, and ye visited me not.
44 Then shall they also answer him, saying, Lord, when saw we thee an hungred, or athirst, or a stranger, or naked, or sick, or in prison, and did not minister unto thee?
45 Then shall he answer them, saying, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye did it not to one of the least of these, ye did it not to me.
46 And these shall go away into everlasting punishment: but the righteous into life eternal.


OK this is a call for action. My son, Justin worked long hours yesterday trying to get peoples power working. This is a dangerous job, but a lot of people have dangerous jobs. Think of all the people doing the clean up, that has started over the whole state. And I know there are many people out there that are homeless. But the situation with my son this morning, really hit home with me this. This morning Justin and his crew had to be on site ready to work at 6 am. He is a lineman for the power company. And there was no place to eat, they had restored power to many fast food restaurants, but they were not open, so he is working with out food. I'm sure there are people working clean up that are also working this morning without food. If you see someone working on the power or out there cleaning up all the debris that was left after these devastating tornadoes. Stop what your doing and go take them some water and a loaf of bread and a jar of peanut butter. These are men so maybe several loaves of bread. That way they can at least eat something that will stay with them a little while. I'm as guilty as anyone about not thinking of those people out there trying to get us back to some sort of normal. I know how many good and wonderful people have been hurt by this storm and my heart breaks for them. And our prayers are with them. But let's not forget the ones out there trying to clean up the devastation, and trying to get our power back on. I know this hit me hard because its my child, but everyone that is trying to help is someones child. Thanks for reading this and now maybe I will feel better to have gotten this off my chest. And if you can't get out to carry food to worker or victims of this horrible tragedy, at the very least we need to be praying for them.

Friday, April 22, 2011

EASTER what is it really about - Matthew 26: 14 thru 27:60... From the Betrayal to the Burial.

Easter

I really think it is important today to read this scripture. And that we sit and meditate on what Jesus Christ went through for Me and YOU. I am not going to Celebrate today, I have a heavy heart for all that Jesus went through as a man that I might be saved. The lamb of God. The ultimate sacrifice for the sins of the world.

John 3:13 Howbeit when he, the Spirit of truth, is come, he will guide you into all truth: for he shall not speak of himself; but whatsoever he shall hear, [that] shall he speak: and he will shew you things to come.

There is not much I can say that is more profound than John 3:16-18

16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.


17 For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.


18 He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.

These are precious scriptures, and this is Why we celebrate Easter. Please read the rest of the scripture. And pray that God will give you understanding, so that if you have not been saved. You can accept Jesus Christ as your personal saviour. And for us that have already been saved, that we might bring to our remembrance what a gift it is to know Christ, and be able to praise and worship him in Spirit and Truth. I decided that this was important scripture for me today. I hope you will take the time to slowly read this and ponder it all day. Love ya Lisa


14] Then one of the twelve, called Judas Iscariot, went unto the chief priests,

[15] And said unto them, What will ye give me, and I will deliver him unto you? And they covenanted with him for thirty pieces of silver.

[16] And from that time he sought opportunity to betray him.

[17] Now the first day of the feast of unleavened bread the disciples came to Jesus, saying unto him, Where wilt thou that we prepare for thee to eat the passover?

[18] And he said, Go into the city to such a man, and say unto him, The Master saith, My time is at hand; I will keep the passover at thy house with my disciples.

[19] And the disciples did as Jesus had appointed them; and they made ready the passover.

[20] Now when the even was come, he sat down with the twelve.

[21] And as they did eat, he said, Verily I say unto you, that one of you shall betray me.

[22] And they were exceeding sorrowful, and began every one of them to say unto him, Lord, is it I?

[23] And he answered and said, He that dippeth his hand with me in the dish, the same shall betray me.

[24] The Son of man goeth as it is written of him: but woe unto that man by whom the Son of man is betrayed! it had been good for that man if he had not been born.

[25] Then Judas, which betrayed him, answered and said, Master, is it I? He said unto him, Thou hast said.

[26] And as they were eating, Jesus took bread, and blessed it, and brake it, and gave it to the disciples, and said, Take, eat; this is my body.

[27] And he took the cup, and gave thanks, and gave it to them, saying, Drink ye all of it;

[28] For this is my blood of the new testament, which is shed for many for the remission of sins.

[29] But I say unto you, I will not drink henceforth of this fruit of the vine, until that day when I drink it new with you in my Father's kingdom.

[30] And when they had sung an hymn, they went out into the mount of Olives.

[31] Then saith Jesus unto them, All ye shall be offended because of me this night: for it is written, I will smite the shepherd, and the sheep of the flock shall be scattered abroad.

[32] But after I am risen again, I will go before you into Galilee.

[33] Peter answered and said unto him, Though all men shall be offended because of thee, yet will I never be offended.

[34] Jesus said unto him, Verily I say unto thee, That this night, before the cock crow, thou shalt deny me thrice.

[35] Peter said unto him, Though I should die with thee, yet will I not deny thee. Likewise also said all the disciples.

[36] Then cometh Jesus with them unto a place called Gethsemane, and saith unto the disciples, Sit ye here, while I go and pray yonder.

[37] And he took with him Peter and the two sons of Zebedee, and began to be sorrowful and very heavy.

[38] Then saith he unto them, My soul is exceeding sorrowful, even unto death: tarry ye here, and watch with me.

[39] And he went a little further, and fell on his face, and prayed, saying, O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt.

[40] And he cometh unto the disciples, and findeth them asleep, and saith unto Peter, What, could ye not watch with me one hour?

[41] Watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.

[42] He went away again the second time, and prayed, saying, O my Father, if this cup may not pass away from me, except I drink it, thy will be done.

[43] And he came and found them asleep again: for their eyes were heavy.

[44] And he left them, and went away again, and prayed the third time, saying the same words.

[45] Then cometh he to his disciples, and saith unto them, Sleep on now, and take your rest: behold, the hour is at hand, and the Son of man is betrayed into the hands of sinners.

[46] Rise, let us be going: behold, he is at hand that doth betray me.

[47] And while he yet spake, lo, Judas, one of the twelve, came, and with him a great multitude with swords and staves, from the chief priests and elders of the people.

[48] Now he that betrayed him gave them a sign, saying, Whomsoever I shall kiss, that same is he: hold him fast.

[49] And forthwith he came to Jesus, and said, Hail, master; and kissed him.

[50] And Jesus said unto him, Friend, wherefore art thou come? Then came they, and laid hands on Jesus, and took him.

[51] And, behold, one of them which were with Jesus stretched out his hand, and drew his sword, and struck a servant of the high priest's, and smote off his ear.

[52] Then said Jesus unto him, Put up again thy sword into his place: for all they that take the sword shall perish with the sword.

[53] Thinkest thou that I cannot now pray to my Father, and he shall presently give me more than twelve legions of angels?

[54] But how then shall the scriptures be fulfilled, that thus it must be?

[55] In that same hour said Jesus to the multitudes, Are ye come out as against a thief with swords and staves for to take me? I sat daily with you teaching in the temple, and ye laid no hold on me.

[56] But all this was done, that the scriptures of the prophets might be fulfilled. Then all the disciples forsook him, and fled.

[57] And they that had laid hold on Jesus led him away to Caiaphas the high priest, where the scribes and the elders were assembled.

[58] But Peter followed him afar off unto the high priest's palace, and went in, and sat with the servants, to see the end.

[59] Now the chief priests, and elders, and all the council, sought false witness against Jesus, to put him to death;

[60] But found none: yea, though many false witnesses came, yet found they none. At the last came two false witnesses,

[61] And said, This fellow said, I am able to destroy the temple of God, and to build it in three days.

[62] And the high priest arose, and said unto him, Answerest thou nothing? what is it which these witness against thee?

[63] But Jesus held his peace. And the high priest answered and said unto him, I adjure thee by the living God, that thou tell us whether thou be the Christ, the Son of God.

[64] Jesus saith unto him, Thou hast said: nevertheless I say unto you, Hereafter shall ye see the Son of man sitting on the right hand of power, and coming in the clouds of heaven.

[65] Then the high priest rent his clothes, saying, He hath spoken blasphemy; what further need have we of witnesses? behold, now ye have heard his blasphemy.

[66] What think ye? They answered and said, He is guilty of death.

[67] Then did they spit in his face, and buffeted him; and others smote him with the palms of their hands,

[68] Saying, Prophesy unto us, thou Christ, Who is he that smote thee?

[69] Now Peter sat without in the palace: and a damsel came unto him, saying, Thou also wast with Jesus of Galilee.

[70] But he denied before them all, saying, I know not what thou sayest.

[71] And when he was gone out into the porch, another maid saw him, and said unto them that were there, This fellow was also with Jesus of Nazareth.

[72] And again he denied with an oath, I do not know the man.

[73] And after a while came unto him they that stood by, and said to Peter, Surely thou also art one of them; for thy speech bewrayeth thee.

[74] Then began he to curse and to swear, saying, I know not the man. And immediately the cock crew.

[75] And Peter remembered the word of Jesus, which said unto him, Before the cock crow, thou shalt deny me thrice. And he went out, and wept bitterly.



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Matt.27

[1] When the morning was come, all the chief priests and elders of the people took counsel against Jesus to put him to death:

[2] And when they had bound him, they led him away, and delivered him to Pontius Pilate the governor.

[3] Then Judas, which had betrayed him, when he saw that he was condemned, repented himself, and brought again the thirty pieces of silver to the chief priests and elders,

[4] Saying, I have sinned in that I have betrayed the innocent blood. And they said, What is that to us? see thou to that.

[5] And he cast down the pieces of silver in the temple, and departed, and went and hanged himself.

[6] And the chief priests took the silver pieces, and said, It is not lawful for to put them into the treasury, because it is the price of blood.

[7] And they took counsel, and bought with them the potter's field, to bury strangers in.

[8] Wherefore that field was called, The field of blood, unto this day.

[9] Then was fulfilled that which was spoken by Jeremy the prophet, saying, And they took the thirty pieces of silver, the price of him that was valued, whom they of the children of Israel did value;

[10] And gave them for the potter's field, as the Lord appointed me.

[11] And Jesus stood before the governor: and the governor asked him, saying, Art thou the King of the Jews? And Jesus said unto him, Thou sayest.

[12] And when he was accused of the chief priests and elders, he answered nothing.

[13] Then said Pilate unto him, Hearest thou not how many things they witness against thee?

[14] And he answered him to never a word; insomuch that the governor marvelled greatly.

[15] Now at that feast the governor was wont to release unto the people a prisoner, whom they would.

[16] And they had then a notable prisoner, called Barabbas.

[17] Therefore when they were gathered together, Pilate said unto them, Whom will ye that I release unto you? Barabbas, or Jesus which is called Christ?

[18] For he knew that for envy they had delivered him.

[19] When he was set down on the judgment seat, his wife sent unto him, saying, Have thou nothing to do with that just man: for I have suffered many things this day in a dream because of him.

[20] But the chief priests and elders persuaded the multitude that they should ask Barabbas, and destroy Jesus.

[21] The governor answered and said unto them, Whether of the twain will ye that I release unto you? They said, Barabbas.

[22] Pilate saith unto them, What shall I do then with Jesus which is called Christ? They all say unto him, Let him be crucified.

[23] And the governor said, Why, what evil hath he done? But they cried out the more, saying, Let him be crucified.

[24] When Pilate saw that he could prevail nothing, but that rather a tumult was made, he took water, and washed his hands before the multitude, saying, I am innocent of the blood of this just person: see ye to it.

[25] Then answered all the people, and said, His blood be on us, and on our children.

[26] Then released he Barabbas unto them: and when he had scourged Jesus, he delivered him to be crucified.

[27] Then the soldiers of the governor took Jesus into the common hall, and gathered unto him the whole band of soldiers.

[28] And they stripped him, and put on him a scarlet robe.

[29] And when they had platted a crown of thorns, they put it upon his head, and a reed in his right hand: and they bowed the knee before him, and mocked him, saying, Hail, King of the Jews!

[30] And they spit upon him, and took the reed, and smote him on the head.

[31] And after that they had mocked him, they took the robe off from him, and put his own raiment on him, and led him away to crucify him.

[32] And as they came out, they found a man of Cyrene, Simon by name: him they compelled to bear his cross.

[33] And when they were come unto a place called Golgotha, that is to say, a place of a skull,

[34] They gave him vinegar to drink mingled with gall: and when he had tasted thereof, he would not drink.

[35] And they crucified him, and parted his garments, casting lots: that it might be fulfilled which was spoken by the prophet, They parted my garments among them, and upon my vesture did they cast lots.

[36] And sitting down they watched him there;

[37] And set up over his head his accusation written, THIS IS JESUS THE KING OF THE JEWS.

[38] Then were there two thieves crucified with him, one on the right hand, and another on the left.

[39] And they that passed by reviled him, wagging their heads,

[40] And saying, Thou that destroyest the temple, and buildest it in three days, save thyself. If thou be the Son of God, come down from the cross.

[41] Likewise also the chief priests mocking him, with the scribes and elders, said,

[42] He saved others; himself he cannot save. If he be the King of Israel, let him now come down from the cross, and we will believe him.

[43] He trusted in God; let him deliver him now, if he will have him: for he said, I am the Son of God.

[44] The thieves also, which were crucified with him, cast the same in his teeth.

[45] Now from the sixth hour there was darkness over all the land unto the ninth hour.

[46] And about the ninth hour Jesus cried with a loud voice, saying, Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani? that is to say, My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?

[47] Some of them that stood there, when they heard that, said, This man calleth for Elias.

[48] And straightway one of them ran, and took a spunge, and filled it with vinegar, and put it on a reed, and gave him to drink.

[49] The rest said, Let be, let us see whether Elias will come to save him.

[50] Jesus, when he had cried again with a loud voice, yielded up the ghost.

[51] And, behold, the veil of the temple was rent in twain from the top to the bottom; and the earth did quake, and the rocks rent;

[52] And the graves were opened; and many bodies of the saints which slept arose,

[53] And came out of the graves after his resurrection, and went into the holy city, and appeared unto many.

[54] Now when the centurion, and they that were with him, watching Jesus, saw the earthquake, and those things that were done, they feared greatly, saying, Truly this was the Son of God.

[55] And many women were there beholding afar off, which followed Jesus from Galilee, ministering unto him:

[56] Among which was Mary Magdalene, and Mary the mother of James and Joses, and the mother of Zebedee's children.

[57] When the even was come, there came a rich man of Arimathaea, named Joseph, who also himself was Jesus' disciple:

[58] He went to Pilate, and begged the body of Jesus. Then Pilate commanded the body to be delivered.

[59] And when Joseph had taken the body, he wrapped it in a clean linen cloth,

[60] And laid it in his own new tomb, which he had hewn out in the rock: and he rolled a great stone to the door of the sepulchre, and departed.

Friday, April 15, 2011

50

"And even to your old age I am he; and even to hoar hairs will I carry you: I have made, and I will bear; even I will carry, and will deliver you." Isaiah 46:4

"Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with your might; for there is no work or device or knowledge or wisdom in the grave where you are going." Ecclesiastes 9:10

"I have been young, and now am old; yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread." Psalm 37:25

"For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11

April 15, 1961. I was born in Jacksonville Florida. I just seems like yesterday. Some days I still feel like a kid. But most days I feel every minute of 50 plus. But I really think a birthday should be a day of reflection and examination. What have I done with my life for Christ. How have I reflected God in my life for others to see. How can I do these things better. And more than that a birthday should be a day to count all of those blessings, God has given that we take for granted on a daily bases. Think about this verse and what it means to you in your life:

"And even to your old age I am he; and even to hoar hairs will I carry you: I have made, and I will bear; even I will carry, and will deliver you." Isaiah 46:4

Thank you Lord for carrying me when I could not walk, for hearing me when I could not speak, and for delivering me to the other side of my trials in one piece and stronger than when I started. This is what it means to me in my life. No matter my earthly age, he has promised me all these things, what more do I need.

Psalm 139:16 your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.

This verse is very comforting to me. God has a plan for my life, has always had a plan for my life. And I can only hope that the choices I have made have pleased him and that I have shown his Glory and Blessing on my life to everyone. I hope even in my mistakes I have leaned on him and learned from him. So even though today I am turning 50, it doesn't mean my journey is finished. It doesn't mean I get to coast the rest of the way to Heaven. It really means I need to be more conscious of my action and how I am representing God. I need to be working harder for Christ. I can't slow down just because of a number on a calender, I have to work harder. At 50 I know I have lived more than half of my life, if we just go by the numbers, but I really need to be ready to meat my Saviour today because I am not promised my next breath. So I wish everyone a Blessed Day and if you Don't know My Saviour Jesus Christ I would invite you to meet him, this would be the greatest gift that anyone could give me on my birthday. Love all of y'all. Lisa