Be Strong? Very Hard for us Humans

Ephesians 6:10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.
You know to be strong in God and the power of his might sounds so easy. Well let me tell all of us humans how hard this is. We let all of our little daily trial make us weak in God. We think Oh this is such a little problem, I can take care of it my self, why bother God with such a small thing. Well how do we stay strong in God if were not sharing everything with him. Take your best friend on earth, don't you share all your trials with them. Well what is God if he is not the best friend we will ever have. All he wants is for us to share our lives with him. Sometimes we are not strong because we just forget to talk to our best friend in this world. I am trying to be better about this, because i want the Lord's strenght and power in my life. Now this is not a promise that we want have troubles and trials, but that if we have God with us we can be strong and handle the things that come our way so much better.

6:11 Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.

Oh how heavy we think the armour of God is, but that is just untrue. Because God makes us strong and powerful enough to carry this armour with us every minute of every day. My weak shoulders will not carry the armour with out the strenght of God I'm my life. I have tried to put it on by my self before and it just doesn't work as well as when I ask him to help me with each part.

6:12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

6:13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

It plainly tells us how to stand. I forget that I can stand and fight against evil. I don't have to curl up in a ball on the ground and let evil kick me in the head. I have done this and it doesn't work you just end up with a terrible headache and you have done nothing to show God to other people.

6:14 Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; 6:15 And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; 6:16 Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.
6:17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God: 6:18 Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints; 6:19 And for me, that utterance may be given unto me, that I may open my mouth boldly, to make known the mystery of the gospel, 6:20 For which I am an ambassador in bonds: that therein I may speak boldly, as I ought to speak.

So now we know what the WHOLE ARMOUR of GOD is, and the God will give us the strength and power to wear it. I am going to try my hardest to make God my very best friend and be strong and wear my armour with the pride of God. No matter what troubles and trials come along, I don't want to be guilty of just laying down anymore and letting evil kick me in the head. How about you, turn over every worry, care, trouble, trial, and those things that just don't seem fair to God and I believe he will give us peace. We still might have to go thru the fire but at least we will have on the armour that will protect us and we will come out victorious.

Daniel 3:14 Nebuchadnezzar spake and said unto them, Is it true, O Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, do not ye serve my gods, nor worship the golden image which I have set up? 3:15 Now if ye be ready that at what time ye hear the sound of the cornet, flute, harp, sackbut, psaltery, and dulcimer, and all kinds of musick, ye fall down and worship the image which I have made; well: but if ye worship not, ye shall be cast the same hour into the midst of a burning fiery furnace; and who is that God that shall deliver you out of my hands? 3:16 Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, answered and said to the king, O Nebuchadnezzar, we are not careful to answer thee in this matter.

3:17 If it be so, our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the burning fiery furnace, and he will deliver us out of thine hand, O king.

3:18 But if not, be it known unto thee, O king, that we will not serve thy gods, nor worship the golden image which thou hast set up.


But if not: God is still God and he will see us thru anything.

The need to learn to keep your mouth shut.

3:5 Even so the tongue is a little member, and boasteth great things.
Behold, how great a matter a little fire kindleth! 3:6 And the tongue is a fire, a world of iniquity: so is the tongue among our members, that it defileth the whole body, and setteth on fire the course of nature; and it is set on fire of hell.
3:7 For every kind of beasts, and of birds, and of serpents, and of things in the sea, is tamed, and hath been tamed of mankind: 3:8 But the tongue can no man tame; it is an unruly evil, full of deadly poison.

Well my tounge is truly unruly evil, and full of deadly poison. I can take a simple conversation between too people and only hear a few key words, and not hear them in contex and then I get upset.
I am a horrible mother, I hurt my childrens feeling all the time. I don't mean too, but it happens any way. I made my sweet happy go lucky Chelsea cry just a few minutes ago. She had done nothing wrong, and I was ugly to Joshua on the phone and he had done nothing wrong either. Oh my crazy brain thought they had. I am becoming more and more parinoid. And it causes me to really hurt the people I love. My heart is broken, because I can not tame my evil tounge. I am asking God to please help me be a more pleasent person to be around.
Right now I'm in a room by myself and Rodney and the grils are in a different room. And it is all my fault. I try to make excuses because my head hurts so bad I think its going to explode. I'm stressed about this stupid port that want work because I'm going to have to have surgery to replace it, this scares me because its been in 4 years and I know I have a lot of scare tissue that could rupture a major blood vessel. This is not the girls fault. It is no ones fault its just life. I'm also waiting on results on a repeat liver test, because the first one was very abnormal (nurses words not mine).
I am sorry to all my chickies for being so hard to live with. If God looked down on me today he would not say to Satan have you considered my servent Lisa, I have failed God and I have failed my family. Sometime when my tounge runs way and hurst people I think I'd be better off dead so that they don't have to deal with crazy mama.
I dont know why I can't learn to tame my tounge, I know this will happen only with Gods help. So My Dear Saviour please help me control this unruley tounge. I think everyone would be better off if I never spoke again. If you read this please help me pray that I become a better person and that my mouth will shut up and i quit hurting the people I love.

Content in whatsover state I am

2:14 Do all things without murmurings and disputings: 2:15 That ye may be blameless and harmless, the sons of God, without rebuke, in the midst of a crooked and perverse nation, among whom ye shine as lights in the world; 2:16 Holding forth the word of life; that I may rejoice in the day of Christ, that I have not run in vain, neither laboured in vain.

Help me take this scripture and apply it to my life. I am not blameless and I sure mumur and have disputes with Vital Care and BCBS. And every month I do this over and over again. I am so tired. I try to be a person that is easy to deal with, I try to be very flexibale. But I'm tired of always being the one to have to give. Is that the way I'm suspose to let my light shine. I pray that I can deal with these things and let the Light of my Lord Jesus Christ shine to all I have to deal with in my trouble in getting the medication that lets me live a fairly normal life.



4:4 Rejoice in the Lord alway: and again I say, Rejoice.
4:5 Let your moderation be known unto all men. The Lord is at hand.
4:6 Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.
4:7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
4:8 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.
4:9 Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you.
4:10 But I rejoiced in the Lord greatly, that now at the last your care of me hath flourished again; wherein ye were also careful, but ye lacked opportunity.
4:11 Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.
4:12 I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.
4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

I struggle with this scripture also. I post it a lot and it's mostly for me. I can never obtain that contement in my life. I am content that the Lord Jesus is my saviour. I am content that he will take care of me in everything. I have problems in my patients, I know God will take care of me in his time. My problem is I want to give God advice, I don't like being hunger and I hate the suffering part. But I pray that I learn to be content, and to be able to Rejoice in all things that God sends my way and I will draw strength from my trial. Pray for me.

Tax Time

Tax Time

Well it’s that lovely tax time when I get to go all of our taxes. Started on them the first of the week when I felt so bad from the bronchitis. It just plans makes me mad. Our tax system is really messed up. But I don't know what to do about it. I have written to congressmen, senators and even the President, and told them I thought the fair tax was what we needed not an income tax. The fair tax is a consumption tax, we pay the tax when we purchase things, not food, but things. So, if you want to buy a BMW you are taxed on the cost of a BMW. If you want to buy a Focus you are taxed on the cost of a Focus. That’s fair (no such thing as fair, lol…just saying), you get the whole amount of your check each week and can spend it as needed. And the best thing about it to me is everybody pays their fair share. The drug dealers, prostitutes, illegals, liars and cheats, because there is no form to fill out. Well that's what has been on my mind today.

Trip to North Carolina

Trip to North Carolina

We have just made a trip to North Carolina to see my Grandmother. Mamaw is 95 years old, it doesn’t seem real. She is a little more unsteady on her feet and harder of hearing than ever. I was kinda of glad of this Saturday, I think if she could have heard well, we would have gotten on her nerves. I got to see all my female cousins except for Angie, and she live a pretty good way away. I was glad to be able to spend a little time with LaDonna and Greg who lost their mother this last year, we grew up with them always being a Mamaw's and were very close growing up. I hate I did not get to go to Aunt Mildred’s funeral and was glad to get to see them. Darlene, Amy, Lori, Adrianne and her girls and Amy and Lori's children. They are so grown up. Nessa and your sweet little boy came over and spent some time with us Saturday morning. And Cortney and Megan and their families all came. Uncle Paul, Aunt Nancy and Janet, and Aunt Doris and Rodger were also there. It was wonderful Chaos, one of my favorite things. I so enjoyed my visit. I rode up with Mama and Daddy and home on Sunday with Laura and Nolan. I don't think I was too much trouble to Laura and Nolan because I slept the whole way home. Only woke up for bathroom breaks and to eat. Maybe my snoring didn't drive them too crazy. The when I got home, I started taking sick on Mondays afternoon. Had to call the doctor on Tuesday, am back on antibiotic and steroid dose pack. Of course, cough was a little better yesterday but no sleep for me last night. Was so glad to get to see so many of my family, so I haven’t seen in about 6 years. I am just worn out today and have been this way all week, but it was worth the effort. We saw Jessica, John Mark, Chloe and Joel off to the first phase of their grand adventure. This is how I think of there upcoming trip. I ask for prayers for them, prayers for me and all my family. Love everyone.

Job 1: 6-12 Why is that not me.

Job 1:6 Now there was a day when the sons of God came to present themselves before the LORD, and Satan came also among them.
1:7 And the LORD said unto Satan, Whence comest thou? Then Satan answered the LORD, and said, From going to and fro in the earth, and from walking up and down in it.
1:8 And the LORD said unto Satan, Hast thou considered my servant Job, that there is none like him in the earth, a perfect and an upright man, one that feareth God, and escheweth evil? 1:9 Then Satan answered the LORD, and said, Doth Job fear God for nought? 1:10 Hast not thou made an hedge about him, and about his house, and about all that he hath on every side? thou hast blessed the work of his hands, and his substance is increased in the land.
1:11 But put forth thine hand now, and touch all that he hath, and he will curse thee to thy face.
1:12 And the LORD said unto Satan, Behold, all that he hath is in thy power; only upon himself put not forth thine hand. So Satan went forth from the presence of the LORD.

Why can I not have the strenth of Job. He was considered by GOD to be perfect, and an upright man, one that fearthe God and eschewerth evil. How would GOD caracterize me to Satan. NOT perfect, NOT upright, I do fearth GOD but do I do it the way GOD wants, staying away from evil seems pretty easy, until you really take stock of your thoughts, words, actions of every day living, I donot do anything that Man consideres evil, but what about GOD, I think his standards are a lot higher than Man's. Just something to think about. How would GOD describe me?

First Blog

These are the most important people in my life. And it has been a hard thing for me to transition from being Mama to a babie to being Mama to grown children. I am very porud of my family. My husband is a hard working man who comes home and takes care of our farm and home. He works with out complaint, he vacums, washing dishes, washing clothes or cooking our supper. It breaks my heart at times how much he dose for me and I feel like I am a burden to him. And I have good christian children and I include Amy and a Leslie as my children. They all have a wonderful work ethic, that they got from their daddy's example of how you need to conduct your life. I am so Blessed to have been allowed to be part of their lives. I miss them some days that it hurts like a psycial pain. I haven't said that out loud, and am sitting here crying. I ask that all my friend help me pray for peace in my thoughts and life. Sometimes I just get so tired of life, but I'm trying to be more postive, so that my life will show God in everything I do. I should be able to let my light shine even if its just at home for me and Bitz. I fall so short on this. Maybe this blog thing will help me, the doctor suggested that I start a journal. I found that very hard, but maybe this will help me put my feelings in wrighting by thinking i'm talking to someone. Joy, joy to all the people you get stuck reading this, maybe i want make you depressed and i will help my self not be so depressed.