Revelation 21:4 And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.
Psalms 91:1 He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.91:2 I will say of the LORD, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust.91:3 Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence.91:4 He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler.91:5 Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night; nor for the arrow that flieth by day;91:6 Nor for the pestilence that walketh in darkness; nor for the destruction that wasteth at noonday.91:7 A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee.91:8 Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked.91:9 Because thou hast made the LORD, which is my refuge, even the most High, thy habitation;91:10 There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling.91:11 For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways.Psalms 91:12 They shall bear thee up in their hands, lest thou dash thy foot against a stone.91:13 Thou shalt tread upon the lion and adder: the young lion and the dragon shalt thou trample under feet.91:14 Because he hath set his love upon me, therefore will I deliver him: I will set him on high, because he hath known my name.91:15 He shall call upon me, and I will answer him: I will be with him in trouble; I will deliver him, and honour him.91:16 With long life will I satisfy him, and shew him my salvation.
This scripture was our Sunday School lesson a couple weeks ago. Our refuge in a time of trouble. And I started this last week on Thursday December the 9th, but just didn't have the get up and go to even sit here at my computer and type. What a poor example of God's love have I been. Now its December 18th, maybe this is when I was suspose to write this, I don't know the how and why but God dose.
I woke up crying this morning when Rodney left for work. This is a strange thing for me. The main reason it is strange is because I can't hardly make a tear anymore. It has to do with the 200mg of Zoloft and 100mg of Savella I take daily. Yes I know that is a huge amount. It is so much that a regular doctor can not prescribe that amount. I have to see a psychiatrist every 3 months so he can monitor my Major Depressive Disorder without psychotic tendencies. That was a mouth full. But I have acutely cried all morning. And I really don't know why. It might have to do with that I have been sick since the first of October and just can't shake this bug. It might be because of all the extra steroids I have taken in the last 2 months. It may be because I have felt trapped in my home. It may be because its Holiday time, and we have not had the money that we usually have to buy gifts for my children. It may be because I fell yesterday in Walmart and landed on the knee I just had surgery on, and I spilled grape tomatoes all over the floor. It may be because I could not stand the thought of the worker that was standing there to have to clean up my mess, so I helped her round up rolly polly grape tomatoes. And she just thanked me for helping her, when I should have been responsible for cleaning up my mess. It may be because the weekend coming up. It starts today, birthday party for Rodney's mama, where I have no clue how many people will be there in their small house. And don't know if we have enough food or way to much. It maybe because all my children are coming Saturday for our Christmas and a friend ask me yesterday why were we having Christmas so early in the year. And I had to answer that it was the only time they could all fit me in at the same time, because December is so busy. It may because I have cooked chicken quarters in the refrigerator ready to make dressing for lunch Sunday at church, or that Christmas caroling is Sunday evening and that has always be one of my favorite activities at Christmas time and I can't go because it is going to be really cold. It might be because I was still running fever yesterday and the antibiotic I'm on is making me so nauseated that I've not eaten much all week.( and wooohoo, I have lost no weight) Or it could be the tension and stress, of the feud going on with Rodney's family and that his mama cries every time I talk to her. Or that Mr. Freeman is so confused and bout this birthday party he's planning. He has ask all of us to do the same thing, very sad to see him this way Or that Daddy is getting worse and the toll its taking on mama.
Wow what a whinny list of things that is pressing down on me and that's just the tip of the ice burg. So I guess you could say I've been in a dark place since October. I need to remember Psalms 91:2 I will say of the LORD, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust.91:3 Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence." We all go through hard times in our own lives. So even though I'm in God's hiding place where it is safe, I will still have hard things come thru my life, it maybe to bless some one else that comes thru our lives to show them how we handle or problems. I want to let my light shine to other people and am afraid all they see is Whinny Lisa and a burnt out candle. I know I'm under his wings and he will protect me in all things. Psalms 91:1 He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
There is coming a day when no heartaches shall come
No more clouds in the sky, no more tears to dim the eye.
All is peace forevermore on that happy golden shore,
What a day, glorious day that will be.
Chorus
What a day that will be when my Jesus I shall see,
And I look upon His face,
The One who saved me by His grace;
When He takes me by the hand
And leads me through the Promised Land,
What a day, glorious day that will be.
There'll be no sorrow there, no more burdens to bear,
No more sickness, no pain, no more parting over there;
And forever I will be with the One who died for me,
What a day, glorious day that will be.
Chorus
What a day that will be when my Jesus I shall see,
And I look upon His face,
The One who saved me by His grace;
When He takes me by the hand
And leads me through the Promised Land,
What a day, glorious day that will be.
What a day, glorious day that will
I hope this song gets not only in your brain but in your heart, I hope you find your self humming it at odd time. And mostly I want you to remember; that when things seem to get overwhelming you can snuggle up under the wings of God, and he will wipe away all your tears. He never promised we would not have trials and hardships, he just promised to NEVER leave us no matter what were dealing with. Sometime we forget that he is our refuge. Make God your refuge in the time of storm, and that dosen't just mean in hurricane, it alwso cover this light mist and fog we sometines have to dravel thru. And know that he is your strength always. And as always all the typos, missed spelled word, and bad grammar is completely on me. Because God dose not make mistakes. Love ya Lisa.
Friday, December 10, 2010
Friday, November 19, 2010
The Fourth Quarter
Matthew 26:4835Peter said unto him, Though I should die with thee, yet will I not deny thee. Likewise also said all the disciples.
36¶ Then cometh Jesus with them unto a place called Gethsemane, and saith unto the disciples, Sit ye here, while I go and pray yonder.
37And he took with him Peter and the two sons of Zebedee, and began to be sorrowful and very heavy.
38Then saith he unto them, My soul is exceeding sorrowful, even unto death: tarry ye here, and watch with me.
39And he went a little further, and fell on his face, and prayed, saying, O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt.
40And he cometh unto the disciples, and findeth them asleep, and saith unto Peter, What, could ye not watch with me one hour?
41Watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.
42He went away again the second time, and prayed, saying, O my Father, if this cup may not pass away from me, except I drink it, thy will be done.
43And he came and found them asleep again: for their eyes were heavy.
44And he left them, and went away again, and prayed the third time, saying the same words.
45Then cometh he to his disciples, and saith unto them, Sleep on now, and take your rest: behold, the hour is at hand, and the Son of man is betrayed into the hands of sinners.
I love this scripture because it shows just how human both Jesus Christ and disciples were. Yes, Jesus ask God three times to let this cup pass from him. And the he said Thy will be done. The disciples are like me, they were asked wait and pray while Jesus went to pray. They were there to support Jesus and what did they do? They went to sleep. They fell down on their job, of just being supportive of Jesus. Am I asleep? That is the question? Yes at times I'm asleep when I should be bright eyed and bushy tailed waiting on Jesus's command. Yes that is how I find my self way too often.
So here I am sleeping on the job. And maybe as in a football analogy we have to play four quarters. We might get by slacking the first three quarters, and our score could be up, tied, or behind. But when that Fourth quarter gets here you better be playing your best. Not just your best but as perfect as any person can. We can't afford and a fumbled ball or throwing an interception. We've got to play like our life depends on it, because it really dose. The bad thing about life is we don't know what quarter were playing in...ponder that. I think we should live our lives like we were in the fourth quarter everyday and that we have the lead over the devil. But the devil could cause us to fumble or throw that interception. Because the devil comes at us on our blind side and he has us tackled before we know what happened. So the real question is, am I doing God's will or Lisa's. Am I praying daily for God's will to be done in my life, or do I try to tell God what would be best in me in my life. I know I keep God laughing all the time, by wanting for my will be done not his. But I know in my heart that he knows exactly what we need when we need it. And I know that in the fourth quarter, that we will come out with a victory if we just listen and learn from the coach,( yes that means God and The Holy Bible.) So I say put on that whole armor of God and go out on the field (that means the world around me) and get that last touch down that will put us over the top.
So what quarter do you think your in today. I think I'm going to start playing like I'm it my fourth quarter every day. How about you, what quarter do you think your in today. I can make one positively true statement, and that is we just don't know. Are we sleeping when we should be watching and praying. As Jesus did are we saying Lord thy will not my will, and really mean what your saying. How exciting the fourth quarter is, your nearly finished a hard fought battle, your beat up and banged up, but you know you can still win. That we will win. Because Jesus won, he defeated death and the grave, and arose from the grave to save us from our sins. And because he was willing to do the Fathers will. I PLAN TO WIN THIS GAME OF LIFE, HOW ABOUT YOU? And as always forgive my grammar and spelling, that's all my error not God's.
36¶ Then cometh Jesus with them unto a place called Gethsemane, and saith unto the disciples, Sit ye here, while I go and pray yonder.
37And he took with him Peter and the two sons of Zebedee, and began to be sorrowful and very heavy.
38Then saith he unto them, My soul is exceeding sorrowful, even unto death: tarry ye here, and watch with me.
39And he went a little further, and fell on his face, and prayed, saying, O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt.
40And he cometh unto the disciples, and findeth them asleep, and saith unto Peter, What, could ye not watch with me one hour?
41Watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.
42He went away again the second time, and prayed, saying, O my Father, if this cup may not pass away from me, except I drink it, thy will be done.
43And he came and found them asleep again: for their eyes were heavy.
44And he left them, and went away again, and prayed the third time, saying the same words.
45Then cometh he to his disciples, and saith unto them, Sleep on now, and take your rest: behold, the hour is at hand, and the Son of man is betrayed into the hands of sinners.
I love this scripture because it shows just how human both Jesus Christ and disciples were. Yes, Jesus ask God three times to let this cup pass from him. And the he said Thy will be done. The disciples are like me, they were asked wait and pray while Jesus went to pray. They were there to support Jesus and what did they do? They went to sleep. They fell down on their job, of just being supportive of Jesus. Am I asleep? That is the question? Yes at times I'm asleep when I should be bright eyed and bushy tailed waiting on Jesus's command. Yes that is how I find my self way too often.
So here I am sleeping on the job. And maybe as in a football analogy we have to play four quarters. We might get by slacking the first three quarters, and our score could be up, tied, or behind. But when that Fourth quarter gets here you better be playing your best. Not just your best but as perfect as any person can. We can't afford and a fumbled ball or throwing an interception. We've got to play like our life depends on it, because it really dose. The bad thing about life is we don't know what quarter were playing in...ponder that. I think we should live our lives like we were in the fourth quarter everyday and that we have the lead over the devil. But the devil could cause us to fumble or throw that interception. Because the devil comes at us on our blind side and he has us tackled before we know what happened. So the real question is, am I doing God's will or Lisa's. Am I praying daily for God's will to be done in my life, or do I try to tell God what would be best in me in my life. I know I keep God laughing all the time, by wanting for my will be done not his. But I know in my heart that he knows exactly what we need when we need it. And I know that in the fourth quarter, that we will come out with a victory if we just listen and learn from the coach,( yes that means God and The Holy Bible.) So I say put on that whole armor of God and go out on the field (that means the world around me) and get that last touch down that will put us over the top.
So what quarter do you think your in today. I think I'm going to start playing like I'm it my fourth quarter every day. How about you, what quarter do you think your in today. I can make one positively true statement, and that is we just don't know. Are we sleeping when we should be watching and praying. As Jesus did are we saying Lord thy will not my will, and really mean what your saying. How exciting the fourth quarter is, your nearly finished a hard fought battle, your beat up and banged up, but you know you can still win. That we will win. Because Jesus won, he defeated death and the grave, and arose from the grave to save us from our sins. And because he was willing to do the Fathers will. I PLAN TO WIN THIS GAME OF LIFE, HOW ABOUT YOU? And as always forgive my grammar and spelling, that's all my error not God's.
Monday, November 1, 2010
What is Enough
2 Corinthians 12:9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.12:10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.
Well it has been a long 3 weeks. I've been having me a little pity party. And is God happy with that, I really don't think he wants to hear my whining all the time. This verse says" my grace is sufficient for thee." This is the Definition of suf·fi·cient [ sə físh'nt ] adjective, enough: as much as is needed. Sounds simple enough, it means you have all you ever need, no more, no less, just enough. We forget what enough is because as humans we always want more, more time, more money, more sleep, more healthy days, more time with our loved ones, more days off, more fun things in our lives, I could go on and on thinking of the things I think I need more of from life. But this is not what I need to be focused on, the grace of God is what I need to ponder is" His Grace is Sufficient for me". I don't need more Grace because God gave me the exact amount of that I need to live my life in total peace. So why don't I do that, and its sad to say that I don't live every moment of my life content that I have Enough Grace to see me thru. I wonder sometimes if it is because the Grace was free. Do we think something that is free is not as good as something we have to work hard at to achieve. How do I turn my life from want, want, want to peace, peace, peace.
Well he tells us in the verse, "for my strength is made perfect in weakness". Well then it should be pretty easy for "God's strength to be made strong in me", because I'm weak with every breath." Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me." That is one of my main problems I don't glory in my infirmities, I and for the last few weeks it seems as their has been one infirmity after the other, Asthmatic Bron chits + steroid dose pack and big dose of the antibiotic Levequin. Then my treatment was the next week and I was still coughing and sick thru this. So that made the headache I have with the IVIG worse than usually and with a bad head ache the nausea is worse. Then on Monday after the treatment on the week I should feel the best, the Pulmonologist tells me I either have pneumonia or collapsed lung in both lower lobes and wants to put me in the hospital. We work out a compromise, (that means I won that fight) to treat me at home on bed rest. And when I can finally get a good deep breath and have been on 40mg of Prednisone for a week, before I can start titrating it down, I get the stomach bug, and ended up having to have a bag of fluid yesterday to get me over the hump. So I am at my weakness, and it feels like the infirmities are getting the best of me and I'm not showing God's strength." Corinthians 12:10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong." So I know the key is for me to turn over all that mumbling and grumbling, of my so called infirmities, and let my self learn to be strong in my weakness. I need the strength of God, not the Strength of Lisa....That is the key to my problem, that's why I've had a pity party, because I was not looking in the right direction to find my strength. For when I and weak in Lisa then I can be strong in God. And that should be Enough for me. Just knowing that God is my strength and refuge should be Enough for me to conquer any thing. What is Enough......our Lord and Christ Jesus should always be enough. Then I can have that precious peaceful Grace that is sufficient for my every need. Enough, that should always be Enough.
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Well it has been a long 3 weeks. I've been having me a little pity party. And is God happy with that, I really don't think he wants to hear my whining all the time. This verse says" my grace is sufficient for thee." This is the Definition of suf·fi·cient [ sə físh'nt ] adjective, enough: as much as is needed. Sounds simple enough, it means you have all you ever need, no more, no less, just enough. We forget what enough is because as humans we always want more, more time, more money, more sleep, more healthy days, more time with our loved ones, more days off, more fun things in our lives, I could go on and on thinking of the things I think I need more of from life. But this is not what I need to be focused on, the grace of God is what I need to ponder is" His Grace is Sufficient for me". I don't need more Grace because God gave me the exact amount of that I need to live my life in total peace. So why don't I do that, and its sad to say that I don't live every moment of my life content that I have Enough Grace to see me thru. I wonder sometimes if it is because the Grace was free. Do we think something that is free is not as good as something we have to work hard at to achieve. How do I turn my life from want, want, want to peace, peace, peace.
Well he tells us in the verse, "for my strength is made perfect in weakness". Well then it should be pretty easy for "God's strength to be made strong in me", because I'm weak with every breath." Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me." That is one of my main problems I don't glory in my infirmities, I and for the last few weeks it seems as their has been one infirmity after the other, Asthmatic Bron chits + steroid dose pack and big dose of the antibiotic Levequin. Then my treatment was the next week and I was still coughing and sick thru this. So that made the headache I have with the IVIG worse than usually and with a bad head ache the nausea is worse. Then on Monday after the treatment on the week I should feel the best, the Pulmonologist tells me I either have pneumonia or collapsed lung in both lower lobes and wants to put me in the hospital. We work out a compromise, (that means I won that fight) to treat me at home on bed rest. And when I can finally get a good deep breath and have been on 40mg of Prednisone for a week, before I can start titrating it down, I get the stomach bug, and ended up having to have a bag of fluid yesterday to get me over the hump. So I am at my weakness, and it feels like the infirmities are getting the best of me and I'm not showing God's strength." Corinthians 12:10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong." So I know the key is for me to turn over all that mumbling and grumbling, of my so called infirmities, and let my self learn to be strong in my weakness. I need the strength of God, not the Strength of Lisa....That is the key to my problem, that's why I've had a pity party, because I was not looking in the right direction to find my strength. For when I and weak in Lisa then I can be strong in God. And that should be Enough for me. Just knowing that God is my strength and refuge should be Enough for me to conquer any thing. What is Enough......our Lord and Christ Jesus should always be enough. Then I can have that precious peaceful Grace that is sufficient for my every need. Enough, that should always be Enough.
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Sunday, August 8, 2010
Am I Singing and Praising God When I'm In Prison
Acts 16:9 And a vision appeared to Paul in the night; There stood a man of Macedonia, and prayed him, saying, Come over into Macedonia, and help us.
16:10 And after he had seen the vision, immediately we endeavoured to go into Macedonia, assuredly gathering that the Lord had called us for to preach the gospel unto them.
God sent them a vision and told them where to go. They didn't hesitate, they went. They thought they were ONLY going to preach the word of God. I wonder how they imagined things were going to be. I don't know if they were tired in body, but my guess would be yes. But they trusted that God would go before them and make away for them to do his will. And I guess you noticed I said ONLY preach the word. Is that how we treat the things that God instructs us to do, do I use the world ONLY when I think of spreading his word. Do I follow without hesitation, when God tells me what he needs me to do. No most of the time I drag my feet trying to decided if it really came from God. When I already know in my heart that it did. Have I put myself in a prison.
16:16 And it came to pass, as we went to prayer, a certain damsel possessed with a spirit of divination met us, which brought her masters much gain by soothsaying: 16:17 The same followed Paul and us, and cried, saying, These men are the servants of the most high God, which shew unto us the way of salvation.16:18 And this did she many days. But Paul, being grieved, turned and said to the spirit, I command thee in the name of Jesus Christ to come out of her.And he came out the same hour.16:19 And when her masters saw that the hope of their gains was gone, they caught Paul and Silas, and drew them into the marketplace unto the rulers, 16:20 And brought them to the magistrates, saying, These men, being Jews, do exceedingly trouble our city, 16:21 And teach customs, which are not lawful for us to receive, neither to observe, being Romans.
Now Paul was working for God, doing great things in the name of Jesus Christ. What would I have done in that situation, would I have cast the evil spirit from that woman. Or would I have looked at her and tried to go the other way. How many times have I seen people out in public and God commanded me to just say a kind word, or even wanted me to share our precious Jesus with them, and I turned and went the other way. Not very willing am I. I let the outside of people control my actions, not the God that lives inside of my heart. So doesn't that put me in a type of prison. One of my own making.
16:22 And the multitude rose up together against them: and the magistrates rent off their clothes, and commanded to beat them.16:23 And when they had laid many stripes upon them, they cast them into prison, charging the jailer to keep them safely: 16:24 Who, having received such a charge, thrust them into the inner prison, and made their feet fast in the stocks.
Oh me, would Paul have taken this trip if he had known it would end with him beaten, put in stocks and thrown into Prison. I believe yes he would have. Would I. That is the question. Would I willing go into prison if I knew it would save a soul. That's a hard question, am I in prison, looks like I might be.
16:25 And at midnight Paul and Silas prayed, and sang praises unto God: and the prisoners heard them.16:26 And suddenly there was a great earthquake, so that the foundations of the prison were shaken: and immediately all the doors were opened, and every one's bands were loosed.16:27 And the keeper of the prison awaking out of his sleep, and seeing the prison doors open, he drew out his sword, and would have killed himself, supposing that the prisoners had been fled.16:28 But Paul cried with a loud voice, saying, Do thyself no harm: for we are all here.16:29 Then he called for a light, and sprang in, and came trembling, and fell down before Paul and Silas, 16:30 And brought them out, and said, Sirs, what must I do to be saved? 16:31 And they said, Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved, and thy house.16:32 And they spake unto him the word of the Lord, and to all that were in his house.16:33 And he took them the same hour of the night, and washed their stripes; and was baptized, he and all his, straightway.16:34 And when he had brought them into his house, he set meat before them, and rejoiced, believing in God with all his house.
Now Paul and Silas were in prison. Did they drop their heads and say," God why has thou forsaken me". NO. They started singing and praising God and our Lord Jesus. And God heard their singing and sent an Earthquake. Do you think Paul questioned God then. Talk about a bad day, and I get upset just because I can't go outside, because of the heat. But by their actions in their trials, the jailer and his house hold were saved. WOW. I can imagine when God sent them the vision, they would have never thought that their purpose was to be thrown in prison so that a lost soul could be saved. After all God dose know the big picture. Am I singing in my prison?
16:35 And when it was day, the magistrates sent the serjeants, saying, Let those men go.16:36 And the keeper of the prison told this saying to Paul, The magistrates have sent to let you go: now therefore depart, and go in peace.16:37 But Paul said unto them, They have beaten us openly uncondemned, being Romans, and have cast us into prison; and now do they thrust us out privily? nay verily; but let them come themselves and fetch us out.16:38 And the serjeants told these words unto the magistrates: and they feared, when they heard that they were Romans.16:39 And they came and besought them, and brought them out, and desired them to depart out of the city.16:40 And they went out of the prison, and entered into the house of Lydia: and when they had seen the brethren, they comforted them, and departed.
OK now they have been released from prison, not for their great works but because they were by birth Romans. And instead of running as fast and as far as they could from that place, they first went and comforted the people who had taken them in from the beginning. Now we all know this story, we learned it as a child. But do I understand what the message that God has for me in this scripture. I am in a prison. That's right we are all in prison. We are imprisoned by out body's, fiances, our family's, by all the things we think we need to have in this life, our jobs. Sometimes we are prisoners of our own minds. Do I just pick up and go when God gives me a vision of what I'm suppose to be doing, if not I'm in prison. The only way to be completely free is to live for God and to let God live thru us. So I can safely say I'm not free. But I could start singing, and wait for my earthquake. I've never been a in a real earthquake, but I would guess it would be very scary. But don't we have earthquakes in ours lives on a daily basis. Yes we do, my earthquake may seem small to you and yours may seem small to me. But that doesn't make them any less devastating when we're the ones in the middle of the earthquake. God will free us from prison, but not because of our good works, but just as Paul was released because of his birth as a Roman, we are released only because of our rebirth thru Jesus Christ. So do I want to get out of prison. Yes. Think about what kind of prison you have made for your self. Are you singing and praising God, are you prepared for the earthquake that may be coming that will help loosen your shackles. Will you run the other way and try to escape on your own when the earthquake comes. Or will you be still and know He is God and he has a plan for your life. His plan may include some time in prison and a big earthquake, but know if you will go where he leads there is no prison that can hold you. Today I'm going to choose to sing and praise God. I pray that tomorrow I will choose the same thing. How about you?
16:10 And after he had seen the vision, immediately we endeavoured to go into Macedonia, assuredly gathering that the Lord had called us for to preach the gospel unto them.
God sent them a vision and told them where to go. They didn't hesitate, they went. They thought they were ONLY going to preach the word of God. I wonder how they imagined things were going to be. I don't know if they were tired in body, but my guess would be yes. But they trusted that God would go before them and make away for them to do his will. And I guess you noticed I said ONLY preach the word. Is that how we treat the things that God instructs us to do, do I use the world ONLY when I think of spreading his word. Do I follow without hesitation, when God tells me what he needs me to do. No most of the time I drag my feet trying to decided if it really came from God. When I already know in my heart that it did. Have I put myself in a prison.
16:16 And it came to pass, as we went to prayer, a certain damsel possessed with a spirit of divination met us, which brought her masters much gain by soothsaying: 16:17 The same followed Paul and us, and cried, saying, These men are the servants of the most high God, which shew unto us the way of salvation.16:18 And this did she many days. But Paul, being grieved, turned and said to the spirit, I command thee in the name of Jesus Christ to come out of her.And he came out the same hour.16:19 And when her masters saw that the hope of their gains was gone, they caught Paul and Silas, and drew them into the marketplace unto the rulers, 16:20 And brought them to the magistrates, saying, These men, being Jews, do exceedingly trouble our city, 16:21 And teach customs, which are not lawful for us to receive, neither to observe, being Romans.
Now Paul was working for God, doing great things in the name of Jesus Christ. What would I have done in that situation, would I have cast the evil spirit from that woman. Or would I have looked at her and tried to go the other way. How many times have I seen people out in public and God commanded me to just say a kind word, or even wanted me to share our precious Jesus with them, and I turned and went the other way. Not very willing am I. I let the outside of people control my actions, not the God that lives inside of my heart. So doesn't that put me in a type of prison. One of my own making.
16:22 And the multitude rose up together against them: and the magistrates rent off their clothes, and commanded to beat them.16:23 And when they had laid many stripes upon them, they cast them into prison, charging the jailer to keep them safely: 16:24 Who, having received such a charge, thrust them into the inner prison, and made their feet fast in the stocks.
Oh me, would Paul have taken this trip if he had known it would end with him beaten, put in stocks and thrown into Prison. I believe yes he would have. Would I. That is the question. Would I willing go into prison if I knew it would save a soul. That's a hard question, am I in prison, looks like I might be.
16:25 And at midnight Paul and Silas prayed, and sang praises unto God: and the prisoners heard them.16:26 And suddenly there was a great earthquake, so that the foundations of the prison were shaken: and immediately all the doors were opened, and every one's bands were loosed.16:27 And the keeper of the prison awaking out of his sleep, and seeing the prison doors open, he drew out his sword, and would have killed himself, supposing that the prisoners had been fled.16:28 But Paul cried with a loud voice, saying, Do thyself no harm: for we are all here.16:29 Then he called for a light, and sprang in, and came trembling, and fell down before Paul and Silas, 16:30 And brought them out, and said, Sirs, what must I do to be saved? 16:31 And they said, Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved, and thy house.16:32 And they spake unto him the word of the Lord, and to all that were in his house.16:33 And he took them the same hour of the night, and washed their stripes; and was baptized, he and all his, straightway.16:34 And when he had brought them into his house, he set meat before them, and rejoiced, believing in God with all his house.
Now Paul and Silas were in prison. Did they drop their heads and say," God why has thou forsaken me". NO. They started singing and praising God and our Lord Jesus. And God heard their singing and sent an Earthquake. Do you think Paul questioned God then. Talk about a bad day, and I get upset just because I can't go outside, because of the heat. But by their actions in their trials, the jailer and his house hold were saved. WOW. I can imagine when God sent them the vision, they would have never thought that their purpose was to be thrown in prison so that a lost soul could be saved. After all God dose know the big picture. Am I singing in my prison?
16:35 And when it was day, the magistrates sent the serjeants, saying, Let those men go.16:36 And the keeper of the prison told this saying to Paul, The magistrates have sent to let you go: now therefore depart, and go in peace.16:37 But Paul said unto them, They have beaten us openly uncondemned, being Romans, and have cast us into prison; and now do they thrust us out privily? nay verily; but let them come themselves and fetch us out.16:38 And the serjeants told these words unto the magistrates: and they feared, when they heard that they were Romans.16:39 And they came and besought them, and brought them out, and desired them to depart out of the city.16:40 And they went out of the prison, and entered into the house of Lydia: and when they had seen the brethren, they comforted them, and departed.
OK now they have been released from prison, not for their great works but because they were by birth Romans. And instead of running as fast and as far as they could from that place, they first went and comforted the people who had taken them in from the beginning. Now we all know this story, we learned it as a child. But do I understand what the message that God has for me in this scripture. I am in a prison. That's right we are all in prison. We are imprisoned by out body's, fiances, our family's, by all the things we think we need to have in this life, our jobs. Sometimes we are prisoners of our own minds. Do I just pick up and go when God gives me a vision of what I'm suppose to be doing, if not I'm in prison. The only way to be completely free is to live for God and to let God live thru us. So I can safely say I'm not free. But I could start singing, and wait for my earthquake. I've never been a in a real earthquake, but I would guess it would be very scary. But don't we have earthquakes in ours lives on a daily basis. Yes we do, my earthquake may seem small to you and yours may seem small to me. But that doesn't make them any less devastating when we're the ones in the middle of the earthquake. God will free us from prison, but not because of our good works, but just as Paul was released because of his birth as a Roman, we are released only because of our rebirth thru Jesus Christ. So do I want to get out of prison. Yes. Think about what kind of prison you have made for your self. Are you singing and praising God, are you prepared for the earthquake that may be coming that will help loosen your shackles. Will you run the other way and try to escape on your own when the earthquake comes. Or will you be still and know He is God and he has a plan for your life. His plan may include some time in prison and a big earthquake, but know if you will go where he leads there is no prison that can hold you. Today I'm going to choose to sing and praise God. I pray that tomorrow I will choose the same thing. How about you?
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Forgiveness
I had a friend ask me about forgiveness. This is a hard one. I would love to have some other commits on this, to help my friend. All I could say was what is in my heart and to give some scripture to back up my thoughts. So any help would be appreciated. Jesus says that what we bind on earth will be bound in heaven and we should forgive 70 times 7. Which is allot. We are to forgive in the way we want God to forgive us. Not how earthly people forgive. There is a huge difference in man's forgiveness and God's forgiveness, so to me you only have control over what you do and you think, you can never control another persons thoughts or deeds, only yours. So if you want God to forgive you, you have to have a forgiving heart. The Bible also say to be angry and sin not. And Jesus was very angry when he turned the money changers out of the temple. So God understands that as humans we are going to get angry. Its how we handle that anger that defines us to God. He can forgive us for anything, but he expects to see a change in us, that we are not doing that same behavior over and over again. So my answer is as long as I have done everything Biblical correct to seek to forgive some one and they refuse my forgiveness. It is then on them. God is please with you when you can forgive. So don't look at it that you can get the other person to ask to be forgiven, you've just got to do it for your own soul and the people who look to you for guidance. Please read all the scripture that I have for you, I hope this helps. Its hard to get over things that cut us to the bone, but only with God's help can we do it, and it takes time for cuts to heal, and when they're that deep its not an over night thing its an on going process, and some times you even have to have surgery to cut out dead and dying tissue to get a cut to heal. But I promise it you just let if fester you will be eaten up with infection and part of you will die. So use the Bible to wash out your cuts, keep them clean, cut out the dead flesh, and sometime in the future you can have true healing. And true frogiveness only comes from God.
Matthew 5:38-48
Go the Second Mile
38 "You have heard that it was said, "An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth.' 39But I tell you not to resist an evil person. But whoever slaps you on your right cheek, turn the other to him also. 40If anyone wants to sue you and take away your tunic, let him have your cloak also. 41And whoever compels you to go one mile, go with him two. 42Give to him who asks you, and from him who wants to borrow from you do not turn from him.
Love Your Enemies
43 "You have heard that it was said, "You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy.'
44But I say to you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you, 45that you may be sons of your Father in heaven; for He makes His sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust. 46For if you love those who love you, what reward have you? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? 47And if you greet your brethren only, what do you do more than others? Do not even the tax collectors do so? 48Therefore you shall be perfect, just as your Father in heaven is perfect.
Matthew 7:21-29
21 "Not everyone who says to Me, "Lord, Lord,' shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father in heaven. 22Many will say to Me in that day, "Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your name?' 23And then I will declare to them, "I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness!'
Build on the Rock
24 "Therefore whoever hears these sayings of Mine, and does them, I will liken him to a wise man who built his house on the rock: 25and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house; and it did not fall, for it was founded on the rock.
26"But everyone who hears these sayings of Mine, and does not do them, will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand: 27and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house; and it fell. And great was its fall."
28And so it was, when Jesus had ended these sayings, that the people were astonished at His teaching, 29for He taught them as one having authority, and not as the scribes.
Matthew 6:8-15
8"Therefore do not be like them. For your Father knows the things you have need of before you ask Him. 9In this manner, therefore, pray:
Our Father in heaven,
Hallowed be Your name.
10Your kingdom come.
Your will be done
On earth as it is in heaven.
11Give us this day our daily bread.
12And forgive us our debts,
As we forgive our debtors.
13And do not lead us into temptation,
But deliver us from the evil one.
For Yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever. Amen.
14"For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. 15But if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.
Matthew.
18:15 Moreover if thy brother shall trespass against thee, go and tell him his fault between thee and him alone: if he shall hear thee, thou hast gained thy brother.
18:16 But if he will not hear thee, then take with thee one or two more, that in the mouth of two or three witnesses every word may be established.
18:17 And if he shall neglect to hear them, tell it unto the church: but if he neglect to hear the church, let him be unto thee as an heathen man and a publican.
18:18 Verily I say unto you, Whatsoever ye shall bind on earth shall be bound in heaven: and whatsoever ye shall loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven.
18:19 Again I say unto you, That if two of you shall agree on earth as touching any thing that they shall ask, it shall be done for them of my Father which is in heaven.
18:20 For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them.
18:21 Then came Peter to him, and said, Lord, how oft shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? till seven times? 18:22 Jesus saith unto him, I say not unto thee, Until seven times: but, Until seventy times seven.
Luke 6:29
And unto him that smiteth thee on the one cheek offer also the other; and him that taketh away thy cloak forbid not to take thy coat also.
Matthew 5:38-48
Go the Second Mile
38 "You have heard that it was said, "An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth.' 39But I tell you not to resist an evil person. But whoever slaps you on your right cheek, turn the other to him also. 40If anyone wants to sue you and take away your tunic, let him have your cloak also. 41And whoever compels you to go one mile, go with him two. 42Give to him who asks you, and from him who wants to borrow from you do not turn from him.
Love Your Enemies
43 "You have heard that it was said, "You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy.'
44But I say to you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you, 45that you may be sons of your Father in heaven; for He makes His sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust. 46For if you love those who love you, what reward have you? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? 47And if you greet your brethren only, what do you do more than others? Do not even the tax collectors do so? 48Therefore you shall be perfect, just as your Father in heaven is perfect.
Matthew 7:21-29
21 "Not everyone who says to Me, "Lord, Lord,' shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father in heaven. 22Many will say to Me in that day, "Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your name?' 23And then I will declare to them, "I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness!'
Build on the Rock
24 "Therefore whoever hears these sayings of Mine, and does them, I will liken him to a wise man who built his house on the rock: 25and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house; and it did not fall, for it was founded on the rock.
26"But everyone who hears these sayings of Mine, and does not do them, will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand: 27and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house; and it fell. And great was its fall."
28And so it was, when Jesus had ended these sayings, that the people were astonished at His teaching, 29for He taught them as one having authority, and not as the scribes.
Matthew 6:8-15
8"Therefore do not be like them. For your Father knows the things you have need of before you ask Him. 9In this manner, therefore, pray:
Our Father in heaven,
Hallowed be Your name.
10Your kingdom come.
Your will be done
On earth as it is in heaven.
11Give us this day our daily bread.
12And forgive us our debts,
As we forgive our debtors.
13And do not lead us into temptation,
But deliver us from the evil one.
For Yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever. Amen.
14"For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. 15But if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.
Matthew.
18:15 Moreover if thy brother shall trespass against thee, go and tell him his fault between thee and him alone: if he shall hear thee, thou hast gained thy brother.
18:16 But if he will not hear thee, then take with thee one or two more, that in the mouth of two or three witnesses every word may be established.
18:17 And if he shall neglect to hear them, tell it unto the church: but if he neglect to hear the church, let him be unto thee as an heathen man and a publican.
18:18 Verily I say unto you, Whatsoever ye shall bind on earth shall be bound in heaven: and whatsoever ye shall loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven.
18:19 Again I say unto you, That if two of you shall agree on earth as touching any thing that they shall ask, it shall be done for them of my Father which is in heaven.
18:20 For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them.
18:21 Then came Peter to him, and said, Lord, how oft shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? till seven times? 18:22 Jesus saith unto him, I say not unto thee, Until seven times: but, Until seventy times seven.
Luke 6:29
And unto him that smiteth thee on the one cheek offer also the other; and him that taketh away thy cloak forbid not to take thy coat also.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Why?
Why, why, why.....it seems to me this is what we whine all the time. Or at least I do. Dose it sound familiar to your ears. When we are first learning to talk this is was one of our favorite words, WHY. Why do I have to do this or that, Why are you so mean to me, Why is life unfair, Why did that have to happen to me, Why do I have to wait, Why can't I have what I want, Why, Why, Why. "Ours is not to reason why, ours is to do or die" these word were written by Alfred Lord Tennyson. But what do they really mean, to me. Well as Christian, who tries my best to live my life by the words of God in my Holy Bible, I should never ask Why, but I do. We like to think we have control over our lives. And then when, what we think are bad things happen to us, we automatically want to ask Why. We want to ask God Why all the time. Well maybe Alfred Lord Tennyson was on to something. "Ours is not to reason why, ours is to do or die." Don't you think God would love it if sometime we just said OK I'm trusting you, that this is your plan for my life and I want your Glory to show thru my life with this trial. To do or die. Wow those are strong words. Even our precious Jesus, while hanging on the cross said in Mark 15;34 "My God, My God, Why has thou forsaken me." He was the perfect sacrifice for the sins of the whole world and HE CHOSE TO DO BY DYING. Wow. I think that God had to look away from him because of my sin, and your sin, the sin of the whole world. Do we think we are really better than our Saviour. There is no comparison between me and Jesus who laid down his life for the sins of the world. Maybe when I'm asking Why, I need to look at my self. I don't believe God can look upon my sin unless it is covered by the Blood of Jesus. He promised me he would never leave me, but I leave him all the time. Maybe we need to listen to Jesus when he is asking us, Why are you not trusting, Why do you think I would leave you in this mess, Why do you think your better than others when it comes to trouble and trials. All I can say is OH MY. Maybe its me, no not maybe, but definitely me. Maybe I need to rid my life of sin, daily, hourly, minute by minute. Because that is the only way my prayers will ever be heard. Maybe I just need to replace the word Why with" Thy will for my life be done". How much happier would I be if I just deleted the word Why from my vocabulary. It's a hard thing to do, because we are just human, but we are to strive, to be like Jesus. The only perfect man, who chose to be a living sacrifice for my sin. Maybe he should have been the last person to ask Why. We will be a fallen creation until we get to heaven, and the only way that will happen is if our sins are covered by the blood. So, will I ever be able to rid my self of that pesky word Why. The honest answer is NO, I'm just a lowly human. Will I try to do better in the future, Yes that is my intention. Will I succeed, I'm afraid the answer is still NO. Not by myself, not on what Lisa can do, only thru Jesus do I have any hope of ridding my self of this word. This is just what has been on my mind, I hope it is a help to someone. It has been a help to me just to think about it. So lets say good bye to this pesky word Why. To do or die. I hope God finds me doing in the name of Jesus and not dying in my sin and asking Why this bad this is happening to me. Love y'all Lisa, but not near as much as Jesus does.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Have I done my job, raising my children.
127:3 Lo, children are an heritage of the LORD: and the fruit of the womb is his reward.
127:4 As arrows are in the hand of a mighty man; so are children of the youth.
127:5 Happy is the man that hath his quiver full of them: they shall not be ashamed, but they shall speak with the enemies in the gate.
22:1 A GOOD name is rather to be chosen than great riches, and loving favour rather than silver and gold.
22:2 The rich and poor meet together: the LORD is the maker of them all.
22:3 A prudent man foreseeth the evil, and hideth himself: but the simple pass on, and are punished.
22:4 By humility and the fear of the LORD are riches, and honour, and life.
22:5 Thorns and snares are in the way of the froward: he that doth keep his soul shall be far from them.
22:6 Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.
6:1 Children, obey your parents in the Lord: for this is right.
6:2 Honour thy father and mother; which is the first commandment with promise; 6:3 That it may be well with thee, and thou mayest live long on the earth.
6:4 And, ye fathers, provoke not your children to wrath: but bring them up in the nurture and admonition of the Lord.
Today my babies turn 21 years old. WOW. It just seems like yesterday that I was going on my first date with Rodney Sylvester Freeman. That was 29 short years ago. With the girls turning 21, it has made me sad. I know I cried all day when Joshua turned 13, because I knew a had such limited time left with him and I was worried, had I given him the tools to live his life as a good honest human being. Had I done everything in my power to see that he knew Jesus and had a personal relationship with him. When Justin turned 13 it was not as hard, I had already crossed that bridge. I think with him it hit me the hardest the day he graduated high school. He was walking away from me following his daddy back to the car for something. Had I done my job, was I sending him into the world with the main things that he would need to be a good honorable human being. Had I shown him Jesus, and made sure he had that most precious personal relationship with Jesus. All the other things that we teach our children are important. But if we teach them about Jesus and the 2 most important commandments then we have done our job. If they live their lives by these, they will always have the hand of God to guide them on their journay thru this evil world we live in. They will not have trial and tribulations, but they will know where to go for help in dealing with anything that comes along. Have I done my job.
12:28 And one of the scribes came, and having heard them reasoning together, and perceiving that he had answered them well, asked him, Which is the first commandment of all? 12:29 And Jesus answered him, The first of all the commandments is, Hear, O Israel; The Lord our God is one Lord: 12:30 And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength: this is the first commandment.
12:31 And the second is like, namely this, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. There is none other commandment greater than these.
Now I'm feeling sad again. My babies are 21 today. I the fear had not hit me until yesterday. I cried a good bit on the way back from Wind Creek yesterday. Have I given them the skills they will need to be successful in the real world? And by successful I mean knowing and using these 2 great commandments. They are wonderful people honest, caring, happy, cheerful, helpful, and many, many other wonderful qualities. But have I done my job. The weight of this should bare on each and every parent. Have we given our children Jesus. The most important gift there can be.
Right now my children have made me proud, they have not made too many bad decisions in their, lives ( yes Joshua this includes you too). There has been nothing so sever that with God's help we were able to get thru it. I want to Thank God today for the privilege to have been their mother. I hope that one day they can Thank God that I was their mother. But this is something that only time will tell. So far so good. I pray each day for each one of them and the boys wonderful spouses. That they will let the light of Jesus shine in their lives and never hid that light under and basket.
I love you Joshua, Justin, Chelsea and Anna and now I also have Leslie and Amy to include in my love and in my family. My most fervent prayer is that I have given y'all the most important thing for your life. Jesus Christ as your living saviour, and have shown you how to have a relationship with him on a minute by minute basis for the rest of your lives. And I will try to live my life in a do as I do manner and not a do as I say, because I know that y'all are watching me, but now that your adults, their is someone out there watching you. Is your light shining.
127:4 As arrows are in the hand of a mighty man; so are children of the youth.
127:5 Happy is the man that hath his quiver full of them: they shall not be ashamed, but they shall speak with the enemies in the gate.
22:1 A GOOD name is rather to be chosen than great riches, and loving favour rather than silver and gold.
22:2 The rich and poor meet together: the LORD is the maker of them all.
22:3 A prudent man foreseeth the evil, and hideth himself: but the simple pass on, and are punished.
22:4 By humility and the fear of the LORD are riches, and honour, and life.
22:5 Thorns and snares are in the way of the froward: he that doth keep his soul shall be far from them.
22:6 Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.
6:1 Children, obey your parents in the Lord: for this is right.
6:2 Honour thy father and mother; which is the first commandment with promise; 6:3 That it may be well with thee, and thou mayest live long on the earth.
6:4 And, ye fathers, provoke not your children to wrath: but bring them up in the nurture and admonition of the Lord.
Today my babies turn 21 years old. WOW. It just seems like yesterday that I was going on my first date with Rodney Sylvester Freeman. That was 29 short years ago. With the girls turning 21, it has made me sad. I know I cried all day when Joshua turned 13, because I knew a had such limited time left with him and I was worried, had I given him the tools to live his life as a good honest human being. Had I done everything in my power to see that he knew Jesus and had a personal relationship with him. When Justin turned 13 it was not as hard, I had already crossed that bridge. I think with him it hit me the hardest the day he graduated high school. He was walking away from me following his daddy back to the car for something. Had I done my job, was I sending him into the world with the main things that he would need to be a good honorable human being. Had I shown him Jesus, and made sure he had that most precious personal relationship with Jesus. All the other things that we teach our children are important. But if we teach them about Jesus and the 2 most important commandments then we have done our job. If they live their lives by these, they will always have the hand of God to guide them on their journay thru this evil world we live in. They will not have trial and tribulations, but they will know where to go for help in dealing with anything that comes along. Have I done my job.
12:28 And one of the scribes came, and having heard them reasoning together, and perceiving that he had answered them well, asked him, Which is the first commandment of all? 12:29 And Jesus answered him, The first of all the commandments is, Hear, O Israel; The Lord our God is one Lord: 12:30 And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength: this is the first commandment.
12:31 And the second is like, namely this, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. There is none other commandment greater than these.
Now I'm feeling sad again. My babies are 21 today. I the fear had not hit me until yesterday. I cried a good bit on the way back from Wind Creek yesterday. Have I given them the skills they will need to be successful in the real world? And by successful I mean knowing and using these 2 great commandments. They are wonderful people honest, caring, happy, cheerful, helpful, and many, many other wonderful qualities. But have I done my job. The weight of this should bare on each and every parent. Have we given our children Jesus. The most important gift there can be.
Right now my children have made me proud, they have not made too many bad decisions in their, lives ( yes Joshua this includes you too). There has been nothing so sever that with God's help we were able to get thru it. I want to Thank God today for the privilege to have been their mother. I hope that one day they can Thank God that I was their mother. But this is something that only time will tell. So far so good. I pray each day for each one of them and the boys wonderful spouses. That they will let the light of Jesus shine in their lives and never hid that light under and basket.
I love you Joshua, Justin, Chelsea and Anna and now I also have Leslie and Amy to include in my love and in my family. My most fervent prayer is that I have given y'all the most important thing for your life. Jesus Christ as your living saviour, and have shown you how to have a relationship with him on a minute by minute basis for the rest of your lives. And I will try to live my life in a do as I do manner and not a do as I say, because I know that y'all are watching me, but now that your adults, their is someone out there watching you. Is your light shining.
Friday, April 23, 2010
Breathe
Genesis 2:7 And the LORD God formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living soul.
Job 12:10 In whose hand is the soul of every living thing, and the breath of all mankind.
Joh 27:3 All the while my breath is in me, and the spirit of God is in my nostrils; 27:4 My lips shall not speak wickedness, nor my tongue utter deceit.
Job 33:4 The spirit of God hath made me, and the breath of the Almighty hath given me life.37:3 And he said unto me, Son of man, can these bones live? And I answered, O Lord GOD, thou knowest.
Exekiel 37:4 Again he said unto me, Prophesy upon these bones, and say unto them, O ye dry bones, hear the word of the LORD.
37:5 Thus saith the Lord GOD unto these bones; Behold, I will cause breath to enter into you, and ye shall live:
Psalma 150:6 Let every thing that hath breath praise the LORD. Praise ye the LORD.
This may seem like a strange topic for my blog this morning at 3:00 am CST. But it is very much on my mind lately. The single biggest miracle for human kind is that God chose to breath the breath of life into our nostrils. For most of us we take Breathing for granted. I vow to be thankful for this gift each day, hour, minute, second and moment of my life.
I understand all to well what it is not to be able to take a breath. As most everyone know (how could you not know, I whine about it all the time) I have severe Myastenia Gravis that affects my respiratory muscles. It weakens them severe at times. Plus I have the double whammy, its called Asthma. I have allergic asthma, exercised induced asthma, every kind of asthma you can conceived I have.
This part may be boring but bare with me, I will get to my point. Breathing, or pulmonary ventilation, is the process of exchanging air between the atmosphere and the lungs, and includes inspiration (inhalation), and expiration (exhalation). An example, the lungs are like a container. By changing the size of the container, the pressure inside increases or decreases proportionally. During normal breathing, the diaphragm and external intercostal muscles contract to expand the lungs (our container), causing the pressure to decrease. When that pressure becomes lower than the atmospheric pressure, the air will move into the lungs (if you have ever siphoned gas its the same idea). As it moves into the lungs, it gets warmer, becomes moist, and expands.
During expiration (exhalation), the diaphragm and intercostal muscles relax, causing the cavity size to reduce, which causes the pressure to increase. When that pressure becomes greater than the atmospheric pressure (outside), the air is forced out of the lungs.
All of this is to say that breathing in is an active process, that requires strong muscles. When you breath in the chest expands and when you exhale it is suppose to be a passive process. So you are really suppose to work to breath in and rest to breath out. Neat concept, except for a Myasthenia Gravis and Asthma suffer. The Myasthenia keep me from have enough muscle strength to bring the air in to my lungs. And once the air is in the lungs I have expiratory asthma which is a fancy way to say all my bronchial tubes constrict and I have to physically ( with my muscles) push the air back out. That's what causes that lovely wheezing sound I have most of the time.
So I really believe I have a pretty good handle on how precious breath is for human life. At times the harder I try to breath, the weaker my muscles get and I end up sounding like a panting dog with short shallow breaths. No wonder, my brain doesn't work correctly most of the time, it is Oxygen deprived. (LOL) So are my other organs. But we compensate, that's another gift from God that I want get into today.
I have said all of this just to remind my self and anyone else who might read this, how precious the gift of breath that GOD him self breathed into our nostrils, it is there to sustain our lives. It is something when working correctly that we don't even think about. Sit very still for a few minutes and listen and feel your self breath. And thank GOD for each and every breath. I am going to finish when a poem that I don't know who wrote, but that I love, I have quoted it many times on face book. But I love it and would like to share it with you.
Love all y'all from the world of Lisa
Job 12:10 In whose hand is the soul of every living thing, and the breath of all mankind.
Joh 27:3 All the while my breath is in me, and the spirit of God is in my nostrils; 27:4 My lips shall not speak wickedness, nor my tongue utter deceit.
Job 33:4 The spirit of God hath made me, and the breath of the Almighty hath given me life.37:3 And he said unto me, Son of man, can these bones live? And I answered, O Lord GOD, thou knowest.
Exekiel 37:4 Again he said unto me, Prophesy upon these bones, and say unto them, O ye dry bones, hear the word of the LORD.
37:5 Thus saith the Lord GOD unto these bones; Behold, I will cause breath to enter into you, and ye shall live:
Psalma 150:6 Let every thing that hath breath praise the LORD. Praise ye the LORD.
This may seem like a strange topic for my blog this morning at 3:00 am CST. But it is very much on my mind lately. The single biggest miracle for human kind is that God chose to breath the breath of life into our nostrils. For most of us we take Breathing for granted. I vow to be thankful for this gift each day, hour, minute, second and moment of my life.
I understand all to well what it is not to be able to take a breath. As most everyone know (how could you not know, I whine about it all the time) I have severe Myastenia Gravis that affects my respiratory muscles. It weakens them severe at times. Plus I have the double whammy, its called Asthma. I have allergic asthma, exercised induced asthma, every kind of asthma you can conceived I have.
This part may be boring but bare with me, I will get to my point. Breathing, or pulmonary ventilation, is the process of exchanging air between the atmosphere and the lungs, and includes inspiration (inhalation), and expiration (exhalation). An example, the lungs are like a container. By changing the size of the container, the pressure inside increases or decreases proportionally. During normal breathing, the diaphragm and external intercostal muscles contract to expand the lungs (our container), causing the pressure to decrease. When that pressure becomes lower than the atmospheric pressure, the air will move into the lungs (if you have ever siphoned gas its the same idea). As it moves into the lungs, it gets warmer, becomes moist, and expands.
During expiration (exhalation), the diaphragm and intercostal muscles relax, causing the cavity size to reduce, which causes the pressure to increase. When that pressure becomes greater than the atmospheric pressure (outside), the air is forced out of the lungs.
All of this is to say that breathing in is an active process, that requires strong muscles. When you breath in the chest expands and when you exhale it is suppose to be a passive process. So you are really suppose to work to breath in and rest to breath out. Neat concept, except for a Myasthenia Gravis and Asthma suffer. The Myasthenia keep me from have enough muscle strength to bring the air in to my lungs. And once the air is in the lungs I have expiratory asthma which is a fancy way to say all my bronchial tubes constrict and I have to physically ( with my muscles) push the air back out. That's what causes that lovely wheezing sound I have most of the time.
So I really believe I have a pretty good handle on how precious breath is for human life. At times the harder I try to breath, the weaker my muscles get and I end up sounding like a panting dog with short shallow breaths. No wonder, my brain doesn't work correctly most of the time, it is Oxygen deprived. (LOL) So are my other organs. But we compensate, that's another gift from God that I want get into today.
I have said all of this just to remind my self and anyone else who might read this, how precious the gift of breath that GOD him self breathed into our nostrils, it is there to sustain our lives. It is something when working correctly that we don't even think about. Sit very still for a few minutes and listen and feel your self breath. And thank GOD for each and every breath. I am going to finish when a poem that I don't know who wrote, but that I love, I have quoted it many times on face book. But I love it and would like to share it with you.
The Best Things
The best things are nearest;
breath in your nostrils, light in your eyes,
flowers at your feet, duties at your hand,
the path of Right just before you.
Do not grasp at the stars,
but do life's plain common work as it comes,
certain that daily duties and daily bread are the sweetest things in life.
Psalms 150:6 Let every thing that hath breath praise the LORD. Praise ye the LORD.
Love all y'all from the world of Lisa
Friday, April 2, 2010
Things: where is our heart
Matthew 6:19 Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal: 6:20 But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal: 6:21 For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.
Luke 12:34 For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.
This is such beautiful scripture. And it is in two different places in the Bible, that tells me it's impotant. Do we every really think about where our treasures are. Things, things, things,just seem to get in our way so often. I had something happen here at the house, last month when the nurse Jolie came to check Rodney off on accessing my port. We always use my dining room table as our work station. Well everyone knows that when I finally got my back pay from social security we bought some new furniture. We have never had much furniture the we bought, most thing we had were given to us over the years. Joshua now has my old table which was mama and daddy's, that I stripped and refinished at least 20 years ago. It had sentamental value and I'm glad Joshua wanted that table in his home, but if he had not wanted it and none of the others had wanted it I would have found some one to give it to that might have been in need. So back to my story about accessing that stupid broken port. We had to opened 4 start packs, used 6 Huber needles before it was finally working. When we went to clean up the HUGE mess we had made, we discovered that where we laid the antibacterial swabs after we cleaned the site, multiple times, on one of the sterile barriers. Well the sterile barrier we put down was not liquid proof, and some of the the very strong antibacterial liquid leaked through and made a fist size spot on my new table, where it took off the finish, that's some strong stuff. Oh me, the little girl who was here to check Rodney off got so up set about ruining my table. I told her not to worry it was just a thing and she had made a memory there for me. She was so upset that we would be mad. And maybe years ago I would have been mad, but what good would that have done. Would I have been an example to her of where my treasures are. To me things are just things that some times envoke a sweet or sad memory. Just like my Boston Rocking Chair that my Grandaddy bought me when I graduated from high school. I stripped it and refinished it last summer, because the girls thought it looked bad, and it was well used and not very steady. So we made a memory by working on it, Rodney did a lot of the work. And now I use it to display the first quilt I ever pieced by my self. That is a good memory. But if it was gone tomorrow I don't think I would be upset because its just a THING.
I told these story's about things in my life that I like, but they are just things, to give examples of some of the things I have accumlated over the 47 years of my life. They will not get me to heaven to live with my precious Lord and Savior Jesus and God the father, and the Holy Spirit that lives with us every day to comfort us when were down. That is where my heart should be. I enjoy the wonderful things God has allowed me to have. I am Blessed far beyond what I deserve. I want my first treasure to be my Lord and Savior, then my husband who is solid gold, the the 4 diamonds in my life named Joshua, Justin, Chelsea and Anna. And the new diamonds in my life Lesile and Amy. I want people to see me as having my priorities right and my eyes on Heaven. Where are your treasures, would you have gotten mad over the table. We let things rule our lives, we say if I just could get this my life would be easier. This is a lie of the Devil. Things never make our life better, there's always some new thing that comes along that makes us think if we had it our life would be better. When the only thing we need to make life better is the hope and trust and faith in Jesus Christ. THINGS, THINGS, THINGS. What things are you wanting. I like nice things but I want my heart to fully devoted to Jesus. How about you.
Luke 12:34 For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.
This is such beautiful scripture. And it is in two different places in the Bible, that tells me it's impotant. Do we every really think about where our treasures are. Things, things, things,just seem to get in our way so often. I had something happen here at the house, last month when the nurse Jolie came to check Rodney off on accessing my port. We always use my dining room table as our work station. Well everyone knows that when I finally got my back pay from social security we bought some new furniture. We have never had much furniture the we bought, most thing we had were given to us over the years. Joshua now has my old table which was mama and daddy's, that I stripped and refinished at least 20 years ago. It had sentamental value and I'm glad Joshua wanted that table in his home, but if he had not wanted it and none of the others had wanted it I would have found some one to give it to that might have been in need. So back to my story about accessing that stupid broken port. We had to opened 4 start packs, used 6 Huber needles before it was finally working. When we went to clean up the HUGE mess we had made, we discovered that where we laid the antibacterial swabs after we cleaned the site, multiple times, on one of the sterile barriers. Well the sterile barrier we put down was not liquid proof, and some of the the very strong antibacterial liquid leaked through and made a fist size spot on my new table, where it took off the finish, that's some strong stuff. Oh me, the little girl who was here to check Rodney off got so up set about ruining my table. I told her not to worry it was just a thing and she had made a memory there for me. She was so upset that we would be mad. And maybe years ago I would have been mad, but what good would that have done. Would I have been an example to her of where my treasures are. To me things are just things that some times envoke a sweet or sad memory. Just like my Boston Rocking Chair that my Grandaddy bought me when I graduated from high school. I stripped it and refinished it last summer, because the girls thought it looked bad, and it was well used and not very steady. So we made a memory by working on it, Rodney did a lot of the work. And now I use it to display the first quilt I ever pieced by my self. That is a good memory. But if it was gone tomorrow I don't think I would be upset because its just a THING.
I told these story's about things in my life that I like, but they are just things, to give examples of some of the things I have accumlated over the 47 years of my life. They will not get me to heaven to live with my precious Lord and Savior Jesus and God the father, and the Holy Spirit that lives with us every day to comfort us when were down. That is where my heart should be. I enjoy the wonderful things God has allowed me to have. I am Blessed far beyond what I deserve. I want my first treasure to be my Lord and Savior, then my husband who is solid gold, the the 4 diamonds in my life named Joshua, Justin, Chelsea and Anna. And the new diamonds in my life Lesile and Amy. I want people to see me as having my priorities right and my eyes on Heaven. Where are your treasures, would you have gotten mad over the table. We let things rule our lives, we say if I just could get this my life would be easier. This is a lie of the Devil. Things never make our life better, there's always some new thing that comes along that makes us think if we had it our life would be better. When the only thing we need to make life better is the hope and trust and faith in Jesus Christ. THINGS, THINGS, THINGS. What things are you wanting. I like nice things but I want my heart to fully devoted to Jesus. How about you.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Help me see my plan is not always your plan.
Dear Lord, thank You for my life and everything in it: the good, the bad and all the future blessings that I know You'll send my way. Help me to recognize the trials in my life as Your gifts in disguise and to wait patiently as Your plan comes to fruition in my life. Amen.
This is a prayer I read this morning. It is beautiful. Why do we find it so hard to know, that sometimes, things we think are devastating and horrible are really gifts from God. I know why I have a problem, I get so wrapped up in the now that I forget to look at the big picture. I think we are all this way. We each have troubles and trials, in our lives. God never promised that we would not have troubles and trial. He ONLY PROMISED TO NEVER LEAVE US. Wow how many other people in your life can you so that about. I would like to believe that my family would never leave me, but life changes all the time and as they go out in the world, they are physically leaving my presence. And I miss them. But I know they haven't left me, that is as it should be, and that they're there any time I really need them. I don't have to physically see them to be with them. Its the same with God but only better. We don't have to worry about cellphone, or Skype coverage dropping out. He's there immediately. God never ever leaves us physically or mentally. He is always there. But we take that so for granted. We want to pull Him out like our favorite blanket to wrap around us when we're sick or tired in spirit and soul. But He's there all the time, we don't need to sit him on a shelf for when we think we have a need. I believe we have a need every second of every day. I will try my hardest and I know with God's help all things are possible, to keep him wrapped around me all the time, and be thankful for the good and the bad thing that come through my life. And know that he dose know the big plan for my life and the lives of the people I love. All I know is the moment in which I live. I really believe life would be so much simpler if we would try to make the simple words in this pray how we live our lives.
Dear Lord, thank You for my life and everything in it: the good, the bad and all the future blessings that I know You'll send my way. Help me to recognize the trials in my life as Your gifts in disguise and to wait patiently as Your plan comes to fruition in my life. Amen.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Be Strong? Very Hard for us Humans
Ephesians 6:10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.
You know to be strong in God and the power of his might sounds so easy. Well let me tell all of us humans how hard this is. We let all of our little daily trial make us weak in God. We think Oh this is such a little problem, I can take care of it my self, why bother God with such a small thing. Well how do we stay strong in God if were not sharing everything with him. Take your best friend on earth, don't you share all your trials with them. Well what is God if he is not the best friend we will ever have. All he wants is for us to share our lives with him. Sometimes we are not strong because we just forget to talk to our best friend in this world. I am trying to be better about this, because i want the Lord's strenght and power in my life. Now this is not a promise that we want have troubles and trials, but that if we have God with us we can be strong and handle the things that come our way so much better.
6:11 Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.
Oh how heavy we think the armour of God is, but that is just untrue. Because God makes us strong and powerful enough to carry this armour with us every minute of every day. My weak shoulders will not carry the armour with out the strenght of God I'm my life. I have tried to put it on by my self before and it just doesn't work as well as when I ask him to help me with each part.
6:12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
6:13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
It plainly tells us how to stand. I forget that I can stand and fight against evil. I don't have to curl up in a ball on the ground and let evil kick me in the head. I have done this and it doesn't work you just end up with a terrible headache and you have done nothing to show God to other people.
6:14 Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; 6:15 And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; 6:16 Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.
6:17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God: 6:18 Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints; 6:19 And for me, that utterance may be given unto me, that I may open my mouth boldly, to make known the mystery of the gospel, 6:20 For which I am an ambassador in bonds: that therein I may speak boldly, as I ought to speak.
So now we know what the WHOLE ARMOUR of GOD is, and the God will give us the strength and power to wear it. I am going to try my hardest to make God my very best friend and be strong and wear my armour with the pride of God. No matter what troubles and trials come along, I don't want to be guilty of just laying down anymore and letting evil kick me in the head. How about you, turn over every worry, care, trouble, trial, and those things that just don't seem fair to God and I believe he will give us peace. We still might have to go thru the fire but at least we will have on the armour that will protect us and we will come out victorious.
Daniel 3:14 Nebuchadnezzar spake and said unto them, Is it true, O Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, do not ye serve my gods, nor worship the golden image which I have set up? 3:15 Now if ye be ready that at what time ye hear the sound of the cornet, flute, harp, sackbut, psaltery, and dulcimer, and all kinds of musick, ye fall down and worship the image which I have made; well: but if ye worship not, ye shall be cast the same hour into the midst of a burning fiery furnace; and who is that God that shall deliver you out of my hands? 3:16 Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, answered and said to the king, O Nebuchadnezzar, we are not careful to answer thee in this matter.
3:17 If it be so, our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the burning fiery furnace, and he will deliver us out of thine hand, O king.
3:18 But if not, be it known unto thee, O king, that we will not serve thy gods, nor worship the golden image which thou hast set up.
But if not: God is still God and he will see us thru anything.
You know to be strong in God and the power of his might sounds so easy. Well let me tell all of us humans how hard this is. We let all of our little daily trial make us weak in God. We think Oh this is such a little problem, I can take care of it my self, why bother God with such a small thing. Well how do we stay strong in God if were not sharing everything with him. Take your best friend on earth, don't you share all your trials with them. Well what is God if he is not the best friend we will ever have. All he wants is for us to share our lives with him. Sometimes we are not strong because we just forget to talk to our best friend in this world. I am trying to be better about this, because i want the Lord's strenght and power in my life. Now this is not a promise that we want have troubles and trials, but that if we have God with us we can be strong and handle the things that come our way so much better.
6:11 Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.
Oh how heavy we think the armour of God is, but that is just untrue. Because God makes us strong and powerful enough to carry this armour with us every minute of every day. My weak shoulders will not carry the armour with out the strenght of God I'm my life. I have tried to put it on by my self before and it just doesn't work as well as when I ask him to help me with each part.
6:12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
6:13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
It plainly tells us how to stand. I forget that I can stand and fight against evil. I don't have to curl up in a ball on the ground and let evil kick me in the head. I have done this and it doesn't work you just end up with a terrible headache and you have done nothing to show God to other people.
6:14 Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; 6:15 And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; 6:16 Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.
6:17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God: 6:18 Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints; 6:19 And for me, that utterance may be given unto me, that I may open my mouth boldly, to make known the mystery of the gospel, 6:20 For which I am an ambassador in bonds: that therein I may speak boldly, as I ought to speak.
So now we know what the WHOLE ARMOUR of GOD is, and the God will give us the strength and power to wear it. I am going to try my hardest to make God my very best friend and be strong and wear my armour with the pride of God. No matter what troubles and trials come along, I don't want to be guilty of just laying down anymore and letting evil kick me in the head. How about you, turn over every worry, care, trouble, trial, and those things that just don't seem fair to God and I believe he will give us peace. We still might have to go thru the fire but at least we will have on the armour that will protect us and we will come out victorious.
Daniel 3:14 Nebuchadnezzar spake and said unto them, Is it true, O Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, do not ye serve my gods, nor worship the golden image which I have set up? 3:15 Now if ye be ready that at what time ye hear the sound of the cornet, flute, harp, sackbut, psaltery, and dulcimer, and all kinds of musick, ye fall down and worship the image which I have made; well: but if ye worship not, ye shall be cast the same hour into the midst of a burning fiery furnace; and who is that God that shall deliver you out of my hands? 3:16 Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, answered and said to the king, O Nebuchadnezzar, we are not careful to answer thee in this matter.
3:17 If it be so, our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the burning fiery furnace, and he will deliver us out of thine hand, O king.
3:18 But if not, be it known unto thee, O king, that we will not serve thy gods, nor worship the golden image which thou hast set up.
But if not: God is still God and he will see us thru anything.
Monday, February 15, 2010
The need to learn to keep your mouth shut.
3:5 Even so the tongue is a little member, and boasteth great things.
Behold, how great a matter a little fire kindleth! 3:6 And the tongue is a fire, a world of iniquity: so is the tongue among our members, that it defileth the whole body, and setteth on fire the course of nature; and it is set on fire of hell.
3:7 For every kind of beasts, and of birds, and of serpents, and of things in the sea, is tamed, and hath been tamed of mankind: 3:8 But the tongue can no man tame; it is an unruly evil, full of deadly poison.
Well my tounge is truly unruly evil, and full of deadly poison. I can take a simple conversation between too people and only hear a few key words, and not hear them in contex and then I get upset.
I am a horrible mother, I hurt my childrens feeling all the time. I don't mean too, but it happens any way. I made my sweet happy go lucky Chelsea cry just a few minutes ago. She had done nothing wrong, and I was ugly to Joshua on the phone and he had done nothing wrong either. Oh my crazy brain thought they had. I am becoming more and more parinoid. And it causes me to really hurt the people I love. My heart is broken, because I can not tame my evil tounge. I am asking God to please help me be a more pleasent person to be around.
Right now I'm in a room by myself and Rodney and the grils are in a different room. And it is all my fault. I try to make excuses because my head hurts so bad I think its going to explode. I'm stressed about this stupid port that want work because I'm going to have to have surgery to replace it, this scares me because its been in 4 years and I know I have a lot of scare tissue that could rupture a major blood vessel. This is not the girls fault. It is no ones fault its just life. I'm also waiting on results on a repeat liver test, because the first one was very abnormal (nurses words not mine).
I am sorry to all my chickies for being so hard to live with. If God looked down on me today he would not say to Satan have you considered my servent Lisa, I have failed God and I have failed my family. Sometime when my tounge runs way and hurst people I think I'd be better off dead so that they don't have to deal with crazy mama.
I dont know why I can't learn to tame my tounge, I know this will happen only with Gods help. So My Dear Saviour please help me control this unruley tounge. I think everyone would be better off if I never spoke again. If you read this please help me pray that I become a better person and that my mouth will shut up and i quit hurting the people I love.
Behold, how great a matter a little fire kindleth! 3:6 And the tongue is a fire, a world of iniquity: so is the tongue among our members, that it defileth the whole body, and setteth on fire the course of nature; and it is set on fire of hell.
3:7 For every kind of beasts, and of birds, and of serpents, and of things in the sea, is tamed, and hath been tamed of mankind: 3:8 But the tongue can no man tame; it is an unruly evil, full of deadly poison.
Well my tounge is truly unruly evil, and full of deadly poison. I can take a simple conversation between too people and only hear a few key words, and not hear them in contex and then I get upset.
I am a horrible mother, I hurt my childrens feeling all the time. I don't mean too, but it happens any way. I made my sweet happy go lucky Chelsea cry just a few minutes ago. She had done nothing wrong, and I was ugly to Joshua on the phone and he had done nothing wrong either. Oh my crazy brain thought they had. I am becoming more and more parinoid. And it causes me to really hurt the people I love. My heart is broken, because I can not tame my evil tounge. I am asking God to please help me be a more pleasent person to be around.
Right now I'm in a room by myself and Rodney and the grils are in a different room. And it is all my fault. I try to make excuses because my head hurts so bad I think its going to explode. I'm stressed about this stupid port that want work because I'm going to have to have surgery to replace it, this scares me because its been in 4 years and I know I have a lot of scare tissue that could rupture a major blood vessel. This is not the girls fault. It is no ones fault its just life. I'm also waiting on results on a repeat liver test, because the first one was very abnormal (nurses words not mine).
I am sorry to all my chickies for being so hard to live with. If God looked down on me today he would not say to Satan have you considered my servent Lisa, I have failed God and I have failed my family. Sometime when my tounge runs way and hurst people I think I'd be better off dead so that they don't have to deal with crazy mama.
I dont know why I can't learn to tame my tounge, I know this will happen only with Gods help. So My Dear Saviour please help me control this unruley tounge. I think everyone would be better off if I never spoke again. If you read this please help me pray that I become a better person and that my mouth will shut up and i quit hurting the people I love.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Content in whatsover state I am
2:14 Do all things without murmurings and disputings: 2:15 That ye may be blameless and harmless, the sons of God, without rebuke, in the midst of a crooked and perverse nation, among whom ye shine as lights in the world; 2:16 Holding forth the word of life; that I may rejoice in the day of Christ, that I have not run in vain, neither laboured in vain.
Help me take this scripture and apply it to my life. I am not blameless and I sure mumur and have disputes with Vital Care and BCBS. And every month I do this over and over again. I am so tired. I try to be a person that is easy to deal with, I try to be very flexibale. But I'm tired of always being the one to have to give. Is that the way I'm suspose to let my light shine. I pray that I can deal with these things and let the Light of my Lord Jesus Christ shine to all I have to deal with in my trouble in getting the medication that lets me live a fairly normal life.
4:4 Rejoice in the Lord alway: and again I say, Rejoice.
4:5 Let your moderation be known unto all men. The Lord is at hand.
4:6 Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.
4:7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
4:8 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.
4:9 Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you.
4:10 But I rejoiced in the Lord greatly, that now at the last your care of me hath flourished again; wherein ye were also careful, but ye lacked opportunity.
4:11 Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.
4:12 I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.
4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.
I struggle with this scripture also. I post it a lot and it's mostly for me. I can never obtain that contement in my life. I am content that the Lord Jesus is my saviour. I am content that he will take care of me in everything. I have problems in my patients, I know God will take care of me in his time. My problem is I want to give God advice, I don't like being hunger and I hate the suffering part. But I pray that I learn to be content, and to be able to Rejoice in all things that God sends my way and I will draw strength from my trial. Pray for me.
Help me take this scripture and apply it to my life. I am not blameless and I sure mumur and have disputes with Vital Care and BCBS. And every month I do this over and over again. I am so tired. I try to be a person that is easy to deal with, I try to be very flexibale. But I'm tired of always being the one to have to give. Is that the way I'm suspose to let my light shine. I pray that I can deal with these things and let the Light of my Lord Jesus Christ shine to all I have to deal with in my trouble in getting the medication that lets me live a fairly normal life.
4:4 Rejoice in the Lord alway: and again I say, Rejoice.
4:5 Let your moderation be known unto all men. The Lord is at hand.
4:6 Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.
4:7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
4:8 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.
4:9 Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you.
4:10 But I rejoiced in the Lord greatly, that now at the last your care of me hath flourished again; wherein ye were also careful, but ye lacked opportunity.
4:11 Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.
4:12 I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.
4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.
I struggle with this scripture also. I post it a lot and it's mostly for me. I can never obtain that contement in my life. I am content that the Lord Jesus is my saviour. I am content that he will take care of me in everything. I have problems in my patients, I know God will take care of me in his time. My problem is I want to give God advice, I don't like being hunger and I hate the suffering part. But I pray that I learn to be content, and to be able to Rejoice in all things that God sends my way and I will draw strength from my trial. Pray for me.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Tax Time
Tax Time
Well it’s that lovely tax time when I get to go all of our
taxes. Started on them the first of the week when I felt so bad from the
bronchitis. It just plans makes me mad. Our tax system is really messed up. But
I don't know what to do about it. I have written to congressmen, senators and
even the President, and told them I thought the fair tax was what we needed not
an income tax. The fair tax is a consumption tax, we pay the tax when we
purchase things, not food, but things. So, if you want to buy a BMW you are
taxed on the cost of a BMW. If you want to buy a Focus you are taxed on the
cost of a Focus. That’s fair (no such thing as fair, lol…just saying), you get
the whole amount of your check each week and can spend it as needed. And the
best thing about it to me is everybody pays their fair share. The drug dealers,
prostitutes, illegals, liars and cheats, because there is no form to fill out.
Well that's what has been on my mind today.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Trip to North Carolina
Trip to North Carolina
We have
just made a trip to North Carolina to see my Grandmother. Mamaw is 95 years
old, it doesn’t seem real. She is a little more unsteady on her feet and harder
of hearing than ever. I was kinda of glad of this Saturday, I think if she
could have heard well, we would have gotten on her nerves. I got to see all my
female cousins except for Angie, and she live a pretty good way away. I was
glad to be able to spend a little time with LaDonna and Greg who lost their
mother this last year, we grew up with them always being a Mamaw's and were
very close growing up. I hate I did not get to go to Aunt Mildred’s funeral and
was glad to get to see them. Darlene, Amy, Lori, Adrianne and her girls and Amy
and Lori's children. They are so grown up. Nessa and your sweet little boy came
over and spent some time with us Saturday morning. And Cortney and Megan and
their families all came. Uncle Paul, Aunt Nancy and Janet, and Aunt Doris and
Rodger were also there. It was wonderful Chaos, one of my favorite things. I so
enjoyed my visit. I rode up with Mama and Daddy and home on Sunday with Laura
and Nolan. I don't think I was too much trouble to Laura and Nolan because I
slept the whole way home. Only woke up for bathroom breaks and to eat. Maybe my
snoring didn't drive them too crazy. The when I got home, I started taking sick
on Mondays afternoon. Had to call the doctor on Tuesday, am back on antibiotic
and steroid dose pack. Of course, cough was a little better yesterday but no
sleep for me last night. Was so glad to get to see so many of my family, so I haven’t
seen in about 6 years. I am just worn out today and have been this way all week,
but it was worth the effort. We saw Jessica, John Mark, Chloe and Joel off to
the first phase of their grand adventure. This is how I think of there upcoming
trip. I ask for prayers for them, prayers for me and all my family. Love
everyone.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Job 1: 6-12 Why is that not me.
Job 1:6 Now there was a day when the sons of God came to present themselves before the LORD, and Satan came also among them.
1:7 And the LORD said unto Satan, Whence comest thou? Then Satan answered the LORD, and said, From going to and fro in the earth, and from walking up and down in it.
1:8 And the LORD said unto Satan, Hast thou considered my servant Job, that there is none like him in the earth, a perfect and an upright man, one that feareth God, and escheweth evil? 1:9 Then Satan answered the LORD, and said, Doth Job fear God for nought? 1:10 Hast not thou made an hedge about him, and about his house, and about all that he hath on every side? thou hast blessed the work of his hands, and his substance is increased in the land.
1:11 But put forth thine hand now, and touch all that he hath, and he will curse thee to thy face.
1:12 And the LORD said unto Satan, Behold, all that he hath is in thy power; only upon himself put not forth thine hand. So Satan went forth from the presence of the LORD.
Why can I not have the strenth of Job. He was considered by GOD to be perfect, and an upright man, one that fearthe God and eschewerth evil. How would GOD caracterize me to Satan. NOT perfect, NOT upright, I do fearth GOD but do I do it the way GOD wants, staying away from evil seems pretty easy, until you really take stock of your thoughts, words, actions of every day living, I donot do anything that Man consideres evil, but what about GOD, I think his standards are a lot higher than Man's. Just something to think about. How would GOD describe me?
1:7 And the LORD said unto Satan, Whence comest thou? Then Satan answered the LORD, and said, From going to and fro in the earth, and from walking up and down in it.
1:8 And the LORD said unto Satan, Hast thou considered my servant Job, that there is none like him in the earth, a perfect and an upright man, one that feareth God, and escheweth evil? 1:9 Then Satan answered the LORD, and said, Doth Job fear God for nought? 1:10 Hast not thou made an hedge about him, and about his house, and about all that he hath on every side? thou hast blessed the work of his hands, and his substance is increased in the land.
1:11 But put forth thine hand now, and touch all that he hath, and he will curse thee to thy face.
1:12 And the LORD said unto Satan, Behold, all that he hath is in thy power; only upon himself put not forth thine hand. So Satan went forth from the presence of the LORD.
Why can I not have the strenth of Job. He was considered by GOD to be perfect, and an upright man, one that fearthe God and eschewerth evil. How would GOD caracterize me to Satan. NOT perfect, NOT upright, I do fearth GOD but do I do it the way GOD wants, staying away from evil seems pretty easy, until you really take stock of your thoughts, words, actions of every day living, I donot do anything that Man consideres evil, but what about GOD, I think his standards are a lot higher than Man's. Just something to think about. How would GOD describe me?
First Blog
These are the most important people in my life. And it has been a hard thing for me to transition from being Mama to a babie to being Mama to grown children. I am very porud of my family. My husband is a hard working man who comes home and takes care of our farm and home. He works with out complaint, he vacums, washing dishes, washing clothes or cooking our supper. It breaks my heart at times how much he dose for me and I feel like I am a burden to him. And I have good christian children and I include Amy and a Leslie as my children. They all have a wonderful work ethic, that they got from their daddy's example of how you need to conduct your life. I am so Blessed to have been allowed to be part of their lives. I miss them some days that it hurts like a psycial pain. I haven't said that out loud, and am sitting here crying. I ask that all my friend help me pray for peace in my thoughts and life. Sometimes I just get so tired of life, but I'm trying to be more postive, so that my life will show God in everything I do. I should be able to let my light shine even if its just at home for me and Bitz. I fall so short on this. Maybe this blog thing will help me, the doctor suggested that I start a journal. I found that very hard, but maybe this will help me put my feelings in wrighting by thinking i'm talking to someone. Joy, joy to all the people you get stuck reading this, maybe i want make you depressed and i will help my self not be so depressed.
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